Hi Kerbe. I really don't know what to tell you. Not sure if this is "normal" teenage stuff or more. I know somewhere either on this site or another is a depression quiz to determine where you're at. Almost sounds like self esteem issues (the putting yourself down). Do you have a parent or counsellor you could talk to about
this that knows what you're normally like? Do you agree with your boyfriend? Do you think somethings up with you? My depression presented in an undeniable manner so I can't use my experience to help you.
Also Kerbe, give people a bit of time to answer. Some may be off to bed (it's 11 pm here) and it is summer
It's definitely not because people don't care.
Post again Kerbe and let us know how you're doing.