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Posted 9/2/2006 2:41 AM (GMT 0)
hi im 14, going into grade 9 into a couple of days and i feel that i have wasted alot of my valueable time. i sit here on the computer all day while friends are out living thier lives. i hang out with them some times and its really great but once i hang out with them, i come home and im immediately depressed again. i feel alone, why i feel depressed? my parents are dumb losers, i live far into the woods so i can barely get out alot, plus my parents work during the day so i cant get a drive anywhere so i sit here, bored, with no access to friends, (except msn). so school starts in a few days every1 is gonna be tanned and  burnt and im gonna be same old pale white albino skin. i hear of people i know from school going out and doing all this very fun stuff, i never get invited, i always have to make the leap to ask. me and my parents dont get along at all we have completely different interests, plus we NEVER do anything together. i have barely any friends, nobody knows me, i cant go anywhere, school starts in 4 days. depression, lonelyness, seclusion and stress. quite the way to end the summer...
Posted 9/2/2006 2:43 PM (GMT 0)
Hi dindin, Welcome to healing well forum, we are happy to have you.  I read your post then tried to think back to when I was 14 and what it was like for me and I am embarrassed to say that I don’t recall much.  We didn’t have a computer as only the people who were super rich had them, we did have a Nintendo though and that back then was pretty major.  Kind of lame huh?  Anyway, I do remember the anxiety of having to start school again after summer vacation each year and worrying if my new outfits and hair styles were going to pass muster with everyone else.  Then going in and trying to be self confident even though that was the last thing I was feeling. 
It sounds as if you live in a rural area perhaps?  Does your school offer extracurricular activities that you could be interested in?  This is a good way to make new friends and have after school activities...plus perhaps your parents wouldn’t mind so much transporting you to them.  I know it is difficult but you may have to make an effort to get interested in something other then sitting on the computer.
I am sure some of our other members will have some additional advice/suggestions for you.  In the mean time you are always welcome to visit us here and post anytime you like.  Take care...and good luck  :-)
Posted 9/2/2006 3:07 PM (GMT 0)
Hey din din i know how you feel not having a summer and basically sitting on a computer for it all. To tell you the truth its OK not to do something during the summer and its ok to look like an albino you will stand out more :D I remember when i had to go back to school....o god did i hate it it wasnt that i had no one to hang out with because i always didd....i just hated them for some unknown reason.

when you go back and someone asks you ....what did you do this summer dont be afraid to tell them that you sat at home....im sure alot of people did....i know i sat at home alot this summer. lol (i got lazy AND I DESERVED TO BE LAZY LOL)

Like elisha said try and get into some sort of sport or drama that will seriously help with your social skills.
Posted 9/2/2006 4:00 PM (GMT 0)
Hi dindin,

Welcome to HW!

Well now, I spent most of the summers of my early teens hiding in a cupboard -- and when I grew too big to fit in that, I spent much of it hiding in my room or the local woods. Rural places are great for finding places to hide, so if that's what you want to do for a while, do it outside in the fresh air and pick up some of that sun (which will help make you feel better!). I wasn't a great one for company -- didn't feel that was a bad thing either! I actually didn't mind those times at all -- had a whole world of my own and it was *fun* to run about in a wood. Ok, so the cupboard and room hiding wasn't all that productive, and it's hard to *really* hide in your parents' house! I was always a bit of a loner at school too -- always liked doing the work more than hanging out with others (what was *that* about??!). I don't think it was wrong for me -- it's who I was -- and to some extent who I still am, it's just that it's easier to be yourself and do things the way you like, and find your own space when you're an adult away from parents and school. That said, I don't get to run around hiding in woods as much these days ... and I wish I did!! So try to enjoy these years for what *you* like to do, not what others *expect* you to do. Mostly people don't notice anyway -- they're too busy worrying about whether or not *they're* doing things right!!

Take care hun,
Rosie x
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