doxycycline cause depression

Kitt,
the problem is I was only taking lithium to satisfy the docs to run the medical tests. It sounds crazy but they didn't want me well. I do not trust doctors anymore. I have been sick for over a year physically and have no diagnosis. My mom has fibromyalgia.We think it is what i have as well. Most of the doctors do not believe in it. I don't like people blaming the wrong things. I had had years of meds and tried them all. Nothing helped but I got on something I had previously tried because I couldn't even get the doc to test me for arthritis. I have been through several doctors this year. They all ship me to therapy instead of running tests because of a mental health diagnosis. I had felt before getting ill I was much better. To have a lot of traumatic stuff happen in a year and get on this med is horrible. I have therapy tomorrow. I only started going to appease the doctors. They believe you cannot cure yourself of depression and it has been annoying me. If i tell them i feel good they tell me its impossible, and they do not listen. I have done better without the system. It needs changed in my opinion. The whole medical system does.mental and healthcare.
Talking things out with therapist never helped me. I had at least eight years of it. I found reading books on mental health helped me the best. If I wanted talk therapy I would talk to my couch. I often joke with hubby that all I need is to be kidnapped and that will fill all the roads to tragedy in my life. Some people do not get hurt this bad. Others are traumatized from the start. I know there are other things I have not experienced, but it is pretty bad. I started telling hubby stuff I have never told anyone. Therapists dont have time to understand what is happening or what has happened. Either the dermatologist is wrong or i have another hidden problem in my mind. I was recently told what was supposedly a mole all my life was really a scar. I am afraid to look at baby pics to see if i was lied to.
I got sick this year and vomited over six months straight, every day. sometimes several times a day and they never even gave me an anti nausea med. They said i wasn't losing weight because they weighed me with my books, purse and winter clothes. It is the differene between steel toed boots and sandals. They wrote down that i lied. Anyone with brains can see i lost 50 lbs without trying. I went from 22 to a size 16 in a year and they tell me i have lost no weight. I finally got a little proof it is not in my head. My stomach isn't healthy. It empties slow. I have to eat small portions several times a day. If not I have problems. They think i have IBS and are treating me for it. They didn't check my colon though, which i think is the main problem. Instead they check my upper GI. Why? Stomach pain. Yes but they knew i was constipated for three months and can barely go. They know I had a sharp pain around that area, and around when it all started. They tell me things are impossible.
My hubby knows percocet does nothing. I tried it once. all it did was make me itch. I tried another popular one and it didn't do anything either. My hubby was astonished. But doctors will not believe me. I told a pharmacist that when they gave me potassium pills at the ER it warmed my legs and feet. She said that that doesn't and would not happen. It happened with me. I was low on pottassium and my feet were freezing all the time, but that night my legs were warmeer than they had been all year.
Doctors are not God. They do not have all the answers. They believe if it isn't in there text book then it must be an anxiety reaction. It makes me wonder what happened to science? I was always healthy until this year. I lost a lot of my abilities. I could barely sing one whole song before having an asthma attack. My fingers were in so much pain and so stiff I couldn't play my instruments. I went to school for music and it was taken from me. I couldn't fold one basket of laundry without being in a lot of pain. I couldn't even clean the house. then they act as if it is a mental illness causing my depression. It was losing the ablitity to do what I always loved most. And all of the things that i will probably not get to do. I finally met a man that i wanted to have children with and i feel it will never happen now. If it is even possible to try i would probably need my gallbladder removed first because of all the stones.
I got out of the last place. I think there was mold in the walls. Since then my breathing has really improved.They tell me mold causes no other symptoms. I disagree. If someone has a different medical experience than the general public they are dismissed. It is frustrating.
I do not go into what happened this week. It made the news though, and as we know, the news usually reports bad stuff.
I have been tired of hearing it must be in my head because i have a mental health diagnosis. I never knew if you had mental illness you were immune to physical illness. hmmph.
I am writing too much. I should go. I know therapy works for some, so I am not saying not to go. It just never worked for me. The most knowledge on how to help myself I got from self help books, changing my thoughts, and my perspectives.
I know i was freaking out last night. ever since the MRI and taking this new med things went bad. I do not like road trips. My hubbys grandpa is dying. It is an eight hour drive. That means a lot of pain for me. And seeing his family whom i feel has hated me from day 1. I don't want to go. I am not in a good place to put up with people telling me how stupid I am. I have another doc appointment today to go over the MRI. Since it is normal they will probably ask how therapy is going and I will have to tell them for three or more visits i am fine and please do something. I am not looking forward to it. But migraines do not show in an MRI anyways. And I think that is what I have. At least for head pain. My body doesn't want to work right. I am only 32 and this is how it is.
Sorry for freakingout. I should go.

Hi Seeker Hiker, Welcome to our forum. It sounds like you have really been through the wringer! Please let me say right off the bat that if you are still having suicidal thoughts, you should go to the hospital immediately. The most important thing is that you are safe. Do you have plans to go back to your doc and discuss your feelings with him? I would suggest telling him exactly what you told us here, about your motorcycle ride, your thoughts about ending it, and your ideas about doxy and depression. I would also encourage you to check out the Lyme forum here at HW, if you have not already done so. I think the members there would be interested to read your story. Stick with us, and keep posting as you feel up to it. We would all like to extend a hand and support you in whatever way we can.

If you read the forum rules, you will know what I am talking about.

Alan1313 said...

I'm sorry, but your interpretation of these "Rules" is so far off base, that I may contact the owner of this board and ask for a review of moderator practices, training and policing.

You are clearly an overly sensitive person, as no-one edited your original post. You were given a friendly 'heads up' by a Mod who does NOT have to take your abuse. Either you didnt read the forum rules before you signed up- or maybe you did and are choosing to flout them. Either way your behaviour is not going to be tolerated. This is a place where people come to express opinions and share, support and encourage (which is what you are welcome to do) in a positive environment. Your agressive tone and nature in your posts is unacceptable.