Post from new member Lamoreon

 THE ONE ON THE WAY!  NOW I'M TRYING TO DO THE RIGHT THINGS IN LIFE. MY RELATIONSHIP WITH MY DAD,AND STEP BROTHER IS A JOKE. IT BOTHERS ME THAT AFTER 33yrs. MY FATHER LIVES 15minutes FROM ME AND DON'T COME TO VISIT ME BECAUSE OF MY STEP MOM. MY BROTHER LIVES IN HARRISONBURG AND HE GOES THERE ALOT,I

  MEAN ALOT! I'VE TRIED TO TELL MYSELF THAT I HAVE MY OWN FAMILY NOW. SO I PUT MY DAD,STEP BRO. OUT OF MY HEART,MIND. I MEAN NO LOVE. KIND OF LIKE A HATRED. EVEN TOWARDS MY DAD MORE SO BECAUSE HE HAS REAL GRAND KIDS and DON'T ACKNOWLEDGE THEM LIKE HE DOES

 FOR MY STEP SISTERS KIDS AND SO FORTH.

TRYING TO STRIVE TO BE A BETTER PERSON IS HARD MOST OF THE TIME.

 IT'S LIKE A TEST TO SEE IF YOU REALLY WANT CHANGE. I WANT TO STOP SMOKING CIGS. BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW. IT HURTS SO BAD INSIDE BECAUSE I NEED TO BE AROUND TO SEE MY GRAND CHILDREN WE THEY DO COME. SEE MY SON'S GRADUATE AND BE MORE THAN WHAT I'D EVER BEEN. LET MY SON'S SEE ME GET MY (GED)WITH A SMILE OF ACCOMPLISHMANT. PLEASE SOME ONE GIVE ME SOME ADVICE. THANKS FOR LISTENING.

I have had to edit a couple of pasrts of your post due to healing well rules:

Rule 1 states :

1. No discussion of any illegal activity or threats of violence. (ie. illicit drug use, including medical marijuana use, threats of suicide or self-injury, or threatened or intended physical harm). Discussions of suicide or self-harm that are deemed negative and therefore potentially injurious to others are also not permitted.