Sinking feeling

  After 2 weeks of no days off between school and work, I finally got off this past weekend.  I thought I was going to be so productive yet I really wasn't.  I just didn't have the motivation to do anything.  I wasted a bunch of time, and just sort of felt horrible.  I got into a cycle of not wanting to do anything, and then feeling guilty about it.  I began to think of all these negative thoughts, and then I ate more than I should have.  In general something just felt off about my energy.  I don't know if I am going into some kind of depression, or maybe I just needed time to recoup.

Part of it might be that I have not exercised in a while.  I get to busy and the first thing that I cut out is exercise.  In actuality I really shouldn't cut that out.  Then I was just recently diagnosed with hypothryroidism, and it takes 4 weeks for the pills to work.  I don't really feel like there is anyone I can talk to about this either.  I have been on antidepressants in the past but they didn't make me feel better.  Zoloft and Prozac just made me really hyperactive.  Remeron caused me to gain 35 pounds that I was never able to lose.  I can probably overcome this feeling on my own, but I have this overwhelming sense that something is wrong with me.

Hi Jade, I agree with Victoria that talking with your doctor is a good idea especially if you have a medical condition that goes along with the depression.  As to the sinking feeling that something is wrong with you and your not being productive on your time off after being so busy during the week...well, that is a very normal thing for most people, even those who dont have depression and hypothyroidism.  You push your mind and body so much and you just need a break to unwind and relax.  It seems that you know and are aware of what the problems are...so perhaps you could try to set up a routine for yourself with going to the gym on certain days, dont let yourself make any excuses not to go and maybe you will find as time goes by that it gets easier to stay on track.  As to the eating what your not supposed too well, I have a huge problem with this myself...I exercise on my good days and have some pretty bad heart problems so I know what not to eat but I dont know if it is a female thing or what but I often find myself reaching for the cookie dough & potato chips first instead of the salads and stuff that I should be eating.  It does make losing any weight hard...especially during these winter months.  Hopefully, someone will have some suggestions in this area.