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Posted 2/23/2007 12:02 PM (GMT 0)
 

Hi Everyone. I have been suffering depression since the start of December, well at least thats when I snapped. After ten trips to te doc, a call to nhs 24/7 and a wee breakdown they finally gave me an anti-depressant (i'm 18 you see and hey weren't keen.) I've been on this a couple of weeks now and i'm fnding that it has stopped the crying a bit and I seem to be coping a bit better. BUT tha horrible niggly dull feeling is still there, and whenever I feel happy it floods over me agan as if to say IM STILL HERE DON'T YOU FORGET IT!!! I know that may sound silly but thats how I feel. This has ruined my life for the past 3 months and drives me insane!  I found this girls post and it basically sums up exactly how I've been, the boyfriend thing, friends music etc. I pick every little detail out of everything and relate it to me. (always bad things never good) . : https://www.healingwell.com/community/default.aspx?f=19&m=706317.

Anyway the point of this post was to ask is ths normal, to still feel like this after being on anti-depressants for 2 weeks, and what really is there purpose, cos I don't really understand :S. Do the just help you cope with the situation or do they make all the bad feelings go away??

HELP!!! Please..I'd love to be me again!

Thanks x x

 

Posted 2/23/2007 12:37 PM (GMT 0)
gal,

i thought i could get off of hw this am without signing in, but your post stopped me.  no, what you're feeling is neiher normal nor healthy.  anti-depressants just make you feel more mellow.  they give you a period of time for your brain chemistry to recover.  this is a vey big oversimplification and is not totally accurate, but it gives youthe picture.

at your age (i remember it well abou 50 yrs ago) you have to add raging hormones to  the problem of depession.  there is some evidence that those raging hormones may actually cause some forms of depression.

if i remember correctly (and i think i do) the most effective therapy for depression is meds plus counseling.

i hope this helps.

warren

Posted 2/23/2007 1:22 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Scotsgal,
Welcome to the board,I am so glad you found us.
Warren has given you great advice.
I totally agree with him on meds plus counseling.
Plus I want to point out that it usually takes up to two weeks for the meds to take full effect.
If at that point you still do not feel like they are working as you thought they would it is time to see the Dr. again.
Another thing,sometimes it takes 2-3 tries to find the right med for you.Do not get discouraged by this,as sometimes meds work differently for other people. I had to endure about a year of switching meds before they finally found the right combo.
Another thing is to keep a list of you symptons. As that will help your Doctor find the right med for you. You may have different symptons than you did when you first went to him.
Good Luck and please keep in touch!

Shy
Posted 2/23/2007 1:57 PM (GMT 0)
thank you! My mood feels a bit better since I started them but tat horrible feeling still looms! I just didn't kow what the meds were for properly whether they were to make the whole lot go away or just help me cope with the situation better. I have seen a councillor a couple of times and I feel she is helping. I really just ant to love my bf like I used to this is my main problem! thanks for helping x
Posted 2/23/2007 4:57 PM (GMT 0)
Hi there
I think the "loving your b/f like you used too" probably does not stem from the depression.
That is a relationship issue,and it sounds like something you need to talk to him about.
Is he doing something different than he did before? Are you seeing him differently than you did before?
This is a "pro's and con's" situation I think.
Something that you could sit down and make a list of the pro's of being with him and then the con's.

Good Luck

Shy
Posted 2/26/2007 9:56 AM (GMT 0)
I don't know as I was fine with him one day and the next I just sort of snapped and felt numb! Honest that is the truth because I don't know what happened! He hasn't done anything wrong and I used to adore him I just don't now why or what happened. It was like I just sort of went crazy! I don't feel like I love him any less I just feel numb, if that makes sense andit kills me to feel like this as I woud give anything to feel how I used to, not just about him but about everything. All I meant in my before post was that I just want to feel how I used 2 for him. I was fine with him the Thursday and then snapped the Friday, I do not know what stared or tirggered this ... I went to the docs and he said its depression. Everything seems o be wrong jus now. I'm sorry I just don't know how to explan any of this I find it har to put it into words! Thats why I used the other girls post. Everything she has written sums up how I am feeling. I swear it is like shes went inside my head and emptied my thoughts. I just don't know what to do.
Posted 2/26/2007 12:42 PM (GMT 0)
scotsgal,
Depression sends everything into lymbo. Your feelings,your cravings,it makes your muscles hurt.
There is nothing "normal" about depression,but there are somewhat "normal" symptoms.

here is a link that I found with some good information:

www.mayoclinic.com/health/depression/DS00175/DSECTION=2

One important thing is that a major sign of depression is not enjoying things that you used too.
It sounds like your feelings towards your boyfriend fits into that catagory.
Talking to your boyfriend about what is going on with you I think would be something that you really need to do.
Just explaining to him that you have no idea what is going on,but trying to explain to him how you feel.
I know it is hard. Talking to someone about what is going on inside of you when you don't know why,or even what you are feeling. Everyday is a different feeling,and you are very confused.
Keep in touch with your doctor,and please post here. I found that this site is a great place to talk to people that have been through what I have.

Shy
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