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Posted 2/26/2007 4:36 PM (GMT 0)
I just found this forum and, after reading some of the posts, have no doubt that there may be a place for me here.

However, I don't even know what to say, where to start.  Suffice to say that I'm suffering from depression/anxiety since the birth of my son (4 years ago - enough already!!)

Particularily since last spring though, everything has completely fallen apart.  It was like a horrible chain of events, one thing leading to another.  I won't go into all of it, but to be brief, I lost a great job, am very close to losing my car due to money problems.  I accidentally od'ed, ended up in the emergency room, and could have potentially lost my son had it not been for family taking care of him while I was in hospital.

I no longer drink or use Ativan for panic attacks, so that's one good thing (cause of OD).  But honestly, I'm just getting by day by day.  I'm struggling.

In answer to potential questions, I will tell you all that I have started anti-depressant/ counselling therapy & I go to an addictions support group, so I am working on getting better.  But so much crap has happened in the past year, I feel so ashamed of myself.  I feel like if I had the money to do it, I'd pack up and leave the town that I live in so I could start fresh.  No one would have to know how badly I've screwed up my life.

Sorry so long.

Posted 2/26/2007 4:43 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Lisa, Welcome to the forum - there is most definatley a place for you here. It sounds like you have had a really rough time but I am glad to hear that you have been recieving help for your depression and anxiety. What you have to remember is that depression is an illness and it's nothing that you have done wrong. You cannot help the way you feel when you are depressed, beleive me Ive been there myself. You are working on getting better and that's a good sign. Recovery doesn't happen over night, its a long road and there are bumps in that road too. Its not all easy but you will get there. Please try not to feel ashamed of yourself, you have been ill and whatever has happened in the past, has happened and you cannot change it so try to look toward the future and getting well again. Even though you have had such a bad time, there is still some positivity in your post and it really sounds like you want to get well. Youshould be proud of yourself for having the courage to accept help and start to move on. You are most welcome here and feel free to post anytime. We are always here to listen. Take care
Posted 2/26/2007 5:55 PM (GMT 0)
Welcome, Lisa.

It sounds like you've had to endure a lot of pain. And you've made it through. And you're continuing to make it through and find tools that will help make things better. That's a big deal.

I just started meds about two weeks ago (again), and all I wanted to do was fall through the floor and surface somewhere in Europe where nobody knew me and I could start over. But I'm beginning to feel better. I hate hate hate the fact that it's day by day. When does it end?! But lately, like I said, I have been feeling a benefit from meds + therapy + cbt together.

I'm glad you survived what you've been through, and glad that you found this site. Hope you have a somewhat good Monday.

Posted 2/26/2007 11:42 PM (GMT 0)
Lisa,

I am new here too. I just posted my story on the forum. Well, I sure know what it's like to lose a job, but I did not have a great job. I was fired from a crummy job and am now really having to come to terms with not only job loss but also depression. Job loss is new. Depression is not. I have chronic depression and have been on Zoloft for several years now. I've also been hospitalized for depression.

Meds + Therapy + CBT is a winning combination -- 80 to 90 percent cure rate for depression. You are doing what has traditionally been a proven approach in the fight against depression.

Stay strong, Lisa.
Posted 2/27/2007 1:56 AM (GMT 0)
I like what Lisa had to say. Cbt is what helped me get my life back and helped me overcome my anxiety , depression and hypochondria etc etc. I have been feeling good for over a year and finally off of all meds. I still do the TEA form thought countering exercise from the book by sam obitz every day. I hope you find something that works for you. I have never lost a job so I can only imagine what that blow feels like but hang in there and you will feel better.
Posted 2/27/2007 5:57 AM (GMT 0)
Thanks for the responses, everyone.
I'll stick around; you all sound like a really supportive groups.
Lisa
Posted 2/27/2007 6:16 AM (GMT 0)

Lisa I am soo proud of you..walk tall ok..it's time to reinvent yourself..and you have already started by seeking help in areas of your life that you felt had dragged you down! Fantastic tongue . Your little son has really good reason to be proud of you too ~ well done!

We all make mistakes in life..but not all of us are brave enough to admit to them let alone seek help and do something about it! You are stronger than you think..start believing in yourself and you will be amazed at what you can achieve.

Don't run away and hide...you haven't screwed up your life ok..you just got a little lost along the track!

Write out some 'day to day' and 'life' goals ~ easy ones first ~ and start working towards them - little steps to start with ok :-)

Look forward to reading your next post.Take good care.

Maree

Posted 2/27/2007 8:59 PM (GMT 0)
Glad you are going to stick around on the forum - its nice to have you here. You have gotten some great advice from the members here and please post again. Take care.
Posted 2/27/2007 9:29 PM (GMT 0)
That's great news Lisa:)
Posted 5/22/2007 6:45 PM (GMT 0)
Hey Lisa I have been thinking about you and hope things are going well for you :)
Posted 5/24/2007 2:13 PM (GMT 0)
Truth be told, running away never solved anything anyway. For a little while, it might feel like you've escaped, but the truth is, unless you deal with the problems, they have a way of following you and turning up when you least expect it or want them to. So what you are doing is the right thing. You are facing your problems head on and dealing with them. It's a very difficult thing to do and it takes a very brave person to admit to being wrong and trying to make the changes necessary to fix things. So kudos to you.

I hope you are doing well.

slowlygoingcrazy
Posted 5/24/2007 7:57 PM (GMT 0)
Good points SGC yeah
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