hello everyone,
just need to vent!
Woke up with that same dodgy feeling again today, I just can't put my finger on what it is though.
Didn't sleep well atall last night, same as every night I suppose, I can't sleep through the whole night without waking up.
Then went shopping with my bf, it went fairly ok but sometimes that weird short of breath feeling, and the this doesn't feel right thoughts blah blah came back! Whats going on with me, it wasn't there all the time, it comes and goes but when it comes I kind of feel like running a million miles away, then other times all I want is him, I'm so confused. He gives me so much love and support, why can't I just give it back. I am finding each day more and more tough I'm getting exhausted tying to fight depression. I was thinking of maybe going to see a psychiatrist privately instead of my councillor?! What do you all think?
Will things EVER get better with my bf, I wish they would cos I feel pysically sick right now becuase of how I feel, I just want to curl up into a ball and die to be honest, but I won't. I won't give up on this.