Hi, I am new here and so glad I found somewhere to go to. It's hard as you all know when you feel alone in a crowded room. I hate the "look" people give you or the "oh sorry",
I am on celexa for anxiety and depression and am not happy at all with it, I was on paxil before this and between the two have gained about 75 pounds. Which really helps the depression lol. I really just want to feel like me again, I want to look in the mirror and see the person I use to be before I got sick, It would be great to not have the anxiety and depression weighing down everything I do.
Ever notice what you really want to say and what you say are two different things, like if I told people how I really felt or really thought they would think less of me or try and talk me out of my feelings?
As I am typing here I am crying, because I really want to just spill everything out but even here where no one knows me I cant do it.
I am of no threat to myself by any means or any one else, just got a lot of stuff built up and scared to let it all out.....
any one else out there as scared as me? 
Just need to know I am not alone I guess, been feeling alone lately, I have good days and bad and I think this is a bad one and it seems to be lasting a little longer than usual.
Anyway thanks for listening 
JAMKG