I have had major depression for over 20 years. It has kicked my butt to the point of losing jobs and a marriage and much more.
This is not a boo hoo story. On 12/03/05 I was diagnosed with stage111 prostate cancer. Psych docs in past have always tried
to find the reason or source of my depression. I could never give them a satisfactory answer. Finally, I can give docs a reason...prostate cancer! Little does my psych doc know, even though I try to explain that depression has put me in a black pit like hole that I may never get out of.
Prostate cancer was convenient for my family too. It is a well-known disease that is free of stigmas. My family called everyone they knew when I was diagnosed with Pca. Depression was a shameful well-guarded secret. No frantic phone calls. No asking how I was feeling. Excuse the double negative but...no nothing! I was more depressed without prostate cancer than with it. Tell people you're battling cancer and you're brave. These same people would stutter and mutter if I told them I was battling depression.
I have had surgery and radiation therapy for the cancer. Yet this is nothing next to the years of sheer misery inflicted upon me by depression. Cancer may kill me, but depression almost has.
I always post on on the prostate cancer site. I think it's time I talk to you for advice and knowledge.
All good thoughts.
Vet
Post Edited (veteran1) : 7/23/2007 8:49:02 AM (GMT-6)