feeling blue?

 in april of this year i was bittin by dog on my right hand and lost the tip of one of my fingers, the dog was hurt and i,m a dog lover. to make a long story short the dog warden shot the dog. very up setting i wasnt going to keep him after that but i didnt want him shot!!!    i just got my CDL to drive school bus doing it part time now, brand new at it you know how it is with a new job. i need some normal in my life. takeing 5mg of valium for anxiety 3 x day helps the anxiety but i think i,m a little depressed now!! almost scared to take anti depressants the side afects sound terrible almost as bad as the depression, i,m sleeping to much and still tired i eat even when i,m not hungry, havent felt happy for a long time, forgot what its like.

 had a lot of blood work done in march 06, everything ok blood work came back good. was a little blue then. but thought it would pass. well i guess thats all for now had to vent, if anybody has any sugesstions i,m game for any thing that might help. thanks for listening. i know i have to talk to dr about this.( look over the spelling)

 even the time change affects me because its dark so early, live in ohio so now the cold and snow are here. cant get out side. need some sunshine!!!

 bye for now

 annette

 annette

 hi getting by, i,m feeling better with a little sunshine we have had. as soon as we had the time change it seemed like i started feeling worse, at least now i,m working part time now and that helps alot. all the holidays this year will   be the first  without my father and he passed away last year before christmas, makes it hard. i lost my mother in 1994 day before thanksgiving, life does go on. but then i had a job to go back to this time i didnt. i,m new at driving bus, driving not the bad part its trying to figure out where they go, you follow a map but you cant read the directions while driving bus with kids on, so you learn to depend on kids to tell you and most of them do if they want to get of the bus. the school distrist i sub for have all automatic and some newer ones i havent drove standard for years. i guess it the anticipasion of getting them all home in the right place when you do a new route for the first time alot of anxiety. i,m so out of shape that 15 minutes on the tread mill wears me out, let alone cross country sking you must be in good shape. i dont sleep very good at night toss and turn, dr gave me lunesta 2mg to try a while back but they kept me awake. that was that. thanks for listening and have a great day and evening.

annette