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Posted 12/15/2007 3:48 PM (GMT 0)
I just wanted everyone to know that I am ok.  The last couple months have been extremely difficult for me partly due to my own insecurities and stupidy.  The other is a family illness which has totally devasted me.  For the first time in my life I am faced with losing someone that I love so much.  My sister is dying of brain cancer and I did not realize how much it would effect me.  Here I thought that I had a heart of stone when it come to letting things hurt me but recently I have realized that my heart is breaking and I feel alone.

 

I did go on a cruise with my sister a couple weeks ago.  It was my first cruise and I was glad that I got to spend it with her.  During the trip I had periods of tears alone and away from her so that she could not see

 

They say that you should cherish the important things in your life and I thought I had but I was wrong.  This has been a new awakening for me, I have had them before but this is so surreal.

 

I will look at life different and I will make changes that I said I would for me and those I love.  I want to try to see my sister again soon.  Pray for me as much as you can.

 

This Christmas is going to be awful with no family, finances or someone to watch the ball drop on New Years Eve.

 

If I dont get on before Christmas, know that I wish you a happy holiday and New Year.

 

You can clutch the past so tightly to your chest that it leaves

 your arms too full to embrace the present.

 

 

Posted 12/15/2007 5:33 PM (GMT 0)

Dear Teresa,

Hello this is Kitt.  I know exactly how you feel, I just lost my oldest Sister on Thanksgiving Day.  I so wish I would have made more time to spend with her but we were 500 miles apart.  I did spend the last 2 weeks of her life with her in the hospitals.

The good that has come out of this is my other Sister who also lives 500 miles away is going to have her baby sister (me) in her life a lot more as we only have each other now.

I will offer many prayers for both you and your sister.

May Peace be your gift at Christmas and your blessing all year through! 

Gentle Hugs,

Kitt

Posted 12/16/2007 4:41 AM (GMT 0)

Teresa,

I had missed you.  I am so sorry that you are about to lose your sister.  I am glad that you gotten to spend some time with her, but I guess the cruise was sort of bitter sweet in a way.  I don't think you can ever prepare yourself for the loss of a loved one, when you know it's going to happen or if it's an accident.

Kitt and I have another good friend who just lost her sister also and she is also going through the grieving process.  There's just no easy way to do it.  You just have to walk through the pain, as hard as it is, to get to the other side of it.  It won't be easy, but let those tears out.  Believe me, I am speaking from experience.

My prayers are with you,

Carla

Posted 12/16/2007 1:36 PM (GMT 0)
Teresa
It is so good to hear from you. I am so sorry that you are going through this.

I have never lost a sibling,but other's on this site have and they can help you get through this.

Stay with us and we will be here for you.
Posted 12/17/2007 4:01 PM (GMT 0)
Thank you guys so much for your prayers they are much needed.  Since I last posted I have had more devastating news within my family.  It just seems that everything is happening at once at christmas when I am depressed already.  I feel really alone but I hold myself responsible for that reason.  I want so much for things to be different!

 

I know that God only gives us what we can handle but I am trying to tell him that my shoulders are getting weak and although I am trying to stay strong, I feel tired.

 

On a more pleasant note, while I was on vacation my brotherinlaw took a picture of my mother, my sister and me at the rainforest in Puerto Rico.  It is a picture that you would have to see to believe.  In this picture there is a woman in the background dressed in snow-white robes.  My brotherinlaw swears that noone was there when he took the picture, believe me it is amazing!  I just think it was a message from God that my family is going to be alright.  We just have to keep the faith.  I have never believed in faith as strong as I have this past couple weeks.  I have had signs all around me.
That is what keeps me going in this crazy world.

 

Keep sending your prayers.

Posted 12/18/2007 12:58 PM (GMT 0)
Teresa
You will get through this,you are a very strong woman and have had so many curves thrown your way.


Stay strong!
Posted 12/18/2007 1:23 PM (GMT 0)

HI Teresa,

Its great to hear from you and I'm glad that you are getting on OK. I am sorry to hear about your sister but think of the wonderful time you spent on the cruise with her. You have come through so much, I have every confidence in you that you wiull succeed again.

All the best

Darren

Posted 12/18/2007 1:56 PM (GMT 0)
So sorry about your sister hun BUT I am glad you did go on the cruise and have the time together...........
Know we are here okay and many of us do know what you are going thru ........

God Bless n Keep you and your Sister in his Arms

Luvs
LYN
Posted 12/18/2007 4:23 PM (GMT 0)

Teresa

I am fascinated by your description of the picture.  It may be a sign to you that you are ok.  Someone is watcing over you.

I am glad you are taking things one day at a time and dealing with them. Remember you do not have to be a rock everyday.  It is ok to be kind to yourself. You are human like all of us.  Lean on us and we will help you through.

Gentle Hugs

Kitt

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