Good morning! I have tried to read more about
anxiety and low blood sugar because I previously thought that anxiety caused only
high blood sugar. Here is one thing I found online among others; it's a blog but I think it addresses this pretty well:
blogs.psychcentral.com/panic/2014/02/low-blood-sugar-and-panic-attacks-how-are-they-related/.
Many years ago I was going through a period of time where anxiety tried to rule my life (along with a slump, not quite full-blown depression) and after many lab tests, the doctor said it was anxiety and I was prescribed an anti-anxiety drug. In those days, I didn't know about
my blood sugar and I have no idea what it was or even if it was tested. I know the tests ruled out heart and other physical conditions though. I would guess that among the lab tests that they would have tested my blood sugar and I wish now that I knew if they had and what the results were.
Since the time that my blood sugar has been a problem (about
10 years ago), it's always reacted to trauma (physical and emotional), sickness, etc. by going high, so now I'm understanding another aspect of how anxiety can cause it go lower.
But since your mom has diabetes and you had the very low drop at the end of the GTT, I still think you have a problem with carb metabolism; that is, if you eat too many carbs at one time, your blood sugar goes too high. Maybe your anxiety does contribute to some of the unstable blood sugar readings, but I do feel it's not the only cause.
I'm glad that the physician is taking this seriously. First and foremost, I think the anxiety and the accompanying symptoms need to be addressed. But I also think you should still see an endocrinologist if your insurance will cover it or even if you have to see one just once or twice on your own.
I don't know how to help you with the panic/anxiety. In my case, I was relieved it was not my heart. I was fearful I was having heart problems and that made me more anxious. Then as I learned more about
anxiety, I understood that anxiety would not kill me and since during the worst part of this I was afraid of dying, this realization really helped - that I was not going to keel over and die. It was hard to control the fear that I might faint though when I felt the anxiety trying to take over, so I tried to breathe more regularly and distract myself in the moment, doing anything that could take my attention away. It could have been walking, reading, TV, doing something in the kitchen, laundry, having a conversation with someone, sweeping out the garage, anything. (This was before we had email and the Internet so readily available to us.) During the worst times, I couldn't lie down in bed because somehow I thought if I put my head down that I would go to sleep and die, so many nights I took my pillow and comforter into the living room and sat half propped up on the couch and would fall asleep there. At least I slept. One particular night at the beginning of all this, I had to call my doctor's emergency number and spoke to a nurse. I told her how I was feeling (well, now I know it was anxiety) and she had me take my pulse and count to her over the phone for about
a minute. Now, I realize she not only was looking for my pulse but also I "think" the act of counting helped calm me, and she knew that. She also told me to take 2 Benadryl. Benadryl is the same as Dramamine, histamines that can stop motion sickness and make you drowsy. This was a big help. Eventually, I came out of that troubling period. I did have two or three sessions with a therapist but I felt it was a waste of time - I didn't like the guy and I didn't feel like he really helped.
I hope you get a handle on all this. I know it's complicated because it involves everything (health, family, situation, work, the world....) but as you come to realize that you really can be more in control of things, I think you will be able to feel better.
(Wow, this was a long post. Are you still awake?
) You can come here and post anytime! I hope you have a good weekend and that the weather is improving. It's been cold here, down to the 20's and 30's but not the snow that the northeast has had!