Heartbroken, I understand what you're saying. At times, especially when you're young, you'll feel like you
are being controlled by the disease. In fact, sometimes when you're diagnosed with an ailment, you can't believe it. Maybe for awhile you'll be in denial and then angry. These are normal reactions. At the same time, you will need to understand that the best way to handle this is to know as much as you can about
diabetes. Ask your doctor or check with the local hospitals or diabetes associations where you are for group meetings for people your age. It would help you tremendously to get to know them and what they're going through, too. You're not alone, believe me. By learning as much as you can, you will be able to have more control over your body and how the diabetes is treated. In a sense, it's like "know your enemy". There are ways that you can lessen some of the effects or even reduce the medication if you lose weight and get into a regular, daily exercise routine. I've lost 35 pounds this past year only by cutting out carbohydrates and exercising. I use a treadmill and ellipical trainer and also I lift weights. Buy, hey, I don't want to be a body builder but I'm stronger now. More muscle burns more calories. You can improve your blood sugar readings by just being careful with what you eat. Ok, so no potatoes, chips, candy,
cookies, cake, etc. But you can eat cheese and there are "cheese puffs". You can easily make them in the microwave. Check back to a couple of months ago and we explain how to make them. Check back here often if you have any questions and let us know how it's going.