Posted 5/18/2012 8:58 PM (GMT 0)
For over a year, I've been having times where family members, my boyfriend, or anyone else close to me, seems 'unfamiliar'. Sometimes places or situations feel unfamiliar as well. This problem has gotten worse over time, and now, it happens nearly every day, to varying degrees. It's as if I don't recognize people, places, etc., even though I am aware that logically, I must know them. Sometimes I call up my boyfriend but I don't know what to say because it feels like I'm calling someone I don't even know. I've also had many times where my parents are speaking to me, but I feel like they're strangers and not actually my parents. It's such a weird feeling. I've never understood why this was happening but just told myself it's due to my very poor memory (although I never fully believed poor memory could cause all this...I probably just told myself that so I'd feel better :/). After a particularly bizarre experience last night (which I will explain in a moment), I decided to do a little research. I soon read about Jamais vu and was amazed at how similar it sounds to what I've been experiencing. Do you agree that that's what it sounds like? I wondered...Is it abnormal for someone to have Jamais vu as often as I have been? I have not yet been diagnosed with seizures, but my EEG came back with several abnormalities. I am seeing a neurologist in a few weeks so he can investigate this further.
Now I will explain the weird experience I had last night. I was repeatedly staring off into space and didn't seem able to stop, and after that, I became very confused. I looked at my mother, but she looked unfamiliar to me. I kept saying to her that I was confused. She asked me what I was confused about, but I had no idea. Everything just felt so "off". I was also confused about what year it was. It felt like it could've been the 1800s, or the 1900s, but certainly not 2012. I thought of my therapist and wanted to call her for help (because it really felt like something was wrong), but I was afraid I'd call her and she wouldn't know who I was. I then thought, "She won't know who I am because I'm seeing into the future and we haven't actually met yet". After all this happened, I felt drained of all my energy. If any of you have input, I would love to hear it. Does this sound seizure-related? If not, do you think there's some other neurological explanation for this? My therapist really feels something neurological is causing my symptoms.
Thanks for reading this. I really appreciate any advice or opinions you can give me.