I AM HAPPY TO BE PART OF WHAT SEEMS TO BE ONE BIG LOVING FAMILY, WHO CAN ALL RELATE IN SOME WAY TO ONE ANOTHER. MY 5 YEAR OLD SON WAS DIANOSED IN JAN WITH EPILEPSY. HE WAS PERFECTLY HEALTHY UNTIL NOV, WHEN HE SUFFERED HIS FIRST SEZIURE(AND ALMOST PUT ME INTO CARDIAC ARREST). AS A MOTHER OF 6, HIM BEING THE BABY I COULD HAVE SWORN I HAD SEEN IT ALL,...WRONG! HE IS CURRENTLY TAKING TRILEPTAL 3 TIMES A DAY, AND SEEMS TO BE DOING WELL. ONLY A FEW LITTLE ONES SINCE. WE DO NOT YET KNOW THE TYPE OF SEIZURES SO FOR LACK OF A CORRECT WORD I SAY LITTLE ONES. I AM A LAID BACK, GIVE MY KIDS FREEDOM TO BE KIDS, KIND OF MOM. SINCE NOV I FIND MYSELF BEING OVERPROTECTIVE, UPTIGHT, AND SLEEP DEPRIVED. ANY ADVICE? DOES THE FEAR EVER GO AWAY, OR AT LEAST GET BETTER? HE IS THE MOST LOVING, INDEPENDENT, CURIOUS, TYPICAL BOY, I EVER MET. I ONLY WANT HIS LIFE TO BE AS NORMAL AS POSSIBLE. I WANT HIS PERSONALITY, AND ACHIEVMENTS TO DEFINE HIM, NOT THIS DISEASE. AM I BEING UNREALISTIC BY FEELING THIS WAY? I FEAR THAT I AM SO CONCENTRATED ON HIM RIGHT NOW THAT I AM DEPRIVING MY OTHER 5 OF WHAT THEY NEED, AND DESERVE FROM ME. IT'S HARD ENOUGH TO KEEP UP WITH ALL OF THOSE NEEDS WITHOUT ADDING FEAR, AND WORRY TO THE GAME. THANKS FOR READING, AND I LOOK FORWARD TO HEARING FROM ALL OF YOU SOON.