I have also been smoking on and off since I was 12, and I will be 21 in April. I don't really want to quit, but at the same time I do. I tend to smoke more when I am in a lot of pain. It's expensive because I have no money, but I have people who support my addiction. Last december, I was in-patient for Postpartum Depression, and I wasn't aloud to go outside and smoke like they used to let you do, and they gave me nicotine patches, but I had them cut straws in half for me so I could chew on them and pretend that I was smoking. A lot of people laughed at me for that. I think the hardest part about
getting over smoking isn't the nicotine, though that is hard...I think it is the psychological addiction. I am glad to hear that you are feeling better today. Keep us posted.