sinderella,
You have been (and it sounds like you're still going through) an extraordinary amount of stress and pain. Then, your job tells you that you need to see a shrink. Wow-THAT must make you feel better!
I know nothing about
your job or the head honchos you work with, but in my opinion, seeing a psychiatrist is a good thing-for you.
I can't tell you what will happen with your job after you see the doctor, but maybe he/she will be able to help you with your stress. Good luck and we are here if you need us.