When I feel bad, sad, mad or am in pain, that covers 90% of my life, I don't want anyone lecturing me about
my cigarettes. If, you (meaning they), felt as I do most of the time they would be in the back alley injecting whatever to make it stop. So, I am being good, taking care of business, mine and carrying the weight for others, as best I can, let me have my vice. I have forsaken all extracirricular activities, don't go out socially, except to facillitate visits for shut-ins, take care of my kids, when they need it, take care of my Dad and stepmom, and if I want to step away from the hospital, onto the street, to have a quick smoke while they load one or the other parent in an ambulance, while I try and figure out how it's going to get paid for (the ambulance), well, live and let live.