Its the End...

of HIGH SCHOOL FOR ME!

Come on, this is a lively post, unlike lately... Today was my LAST day of high school. I took my Calculus exam and pretty much bombed it, since I didnt get done. And I only needed a 60 to have an A in that class..which stinks because I dont think I finished enough to make a 60... With an A in there I would have a 4.0 college GPA! But, its okay, I am just GLAD to be done with it!

Graduation is Friday and I am SO very excited. I havent cried yet and I probably wont. At least not for a couple of months when it really hits me. I am looking forward to college and the experience and meeting new people and being independent. So, Friday evening I will walk across the stage and recieve my diploma for finishing high school.

This might be the emotional part: I never thought I would reach this point. 2 years ago I got really depressed and I felt my life was all down hill from there. So much happened to me and looking even a week ahead wasnt possible for me. Honestly, at many points in my life since all this has occurred, I never imagined me even making it to senior year. And I never thought I would live to see my graduation. And yes, I mean that exactly how it sounds. So many times when all I saw for myself was a life I wasnt happy with and a bottle of pills across the room. Graduation didnt come close to touching that. It didnt matter to me because I knew I would never make it anyways...

Thats a horrible way of thinking, but.... for a long time, thats how I felt. I figured I would end up dying before I would graduate high school, but the day after tomorrow I will graduate. I will have made it.... and guess what....

IM ALIVE!

So, it means alot to me that a lot of you have supported me since I have come here and you guys have helped me through the worst times of my life...and some of the best ones! Pat on the back to all of you for getting me to this point. I really dont know what I would have done without you all. Give yourselves some credit and I thank you all VERY MUCH!

I will think about you guys Friday night when I walk across the stage and start a new chapter in my life. I cant think you all enough, really. Love you guys very much! =]

You sound so much like my oldest daughter. She had a horrible time in high school.....bipolar-manic depressive. Not only was her life hell but so was the rest of us because we could do little to help her. Her "friends" told everyone in school that she was "crazy". Some friends ,huh?
Anyway, she is now almost 31 yrs. old, has been married for 8 yrs. and has a wonderful 15 month old son. So when you walk across that stage to get your diploma, you be proud of how well you've done, how hard you've worked and know that your whole life is ahead of you.
Congratulations!!!!!
Nurse2

Many soft pats on the back to you and Congratulations!!!

Graduating from High School is a major accomplishment on it's own and you did it with fibro and some very tough times! 

I remember my graduation (100 yrs ago now) and I felt so many emotions- happy that I was finally through with high school, but scared to go on with the next phase of my life and what the future held for me. It sounds like you are excited about going on to college and I wish you the best on your new adventure! 

Enjoy your ceremony and we will be there in thought!!  

Jill

Aahhhh, Christi we may have been here to cheer you on and scold you when you wanted to give up but you did this sweetie. You are a lot stronger than you give yourself credit for and have overcame so much that most young women don't have a clue about. You are special and I wish I could be there to watch you walk across that stage with your head held high to get that diploma.

 

CONGRATULATIONS!!!!

 

luv and hugs from one of the old grandmas you have on here

 

Marlee

Tennis, your post not only gave me goosebumps but also tears in my eyes.  I do remember how down you were when you first started posting.  But, as I've said so many times before, you've come such a long way.  You are the one that made the effort.  We helped to guide you and you took the bull by the horns and took off in the right direction. 

 

All the searching for answers to your problem, all the researching you've done, and all the late night studying will pay off on Friday night.  I definitely will be there in spirit!  You are an amazing young woman, highly gifted, extremely special and  you will make a magnificent mark in this world.  I'm so very proud of you.  A big but gentle hug for you, Tennis.  You are really an amazing person!

 

Sherrine

Congratulations to you! And yes this is just the beginning of a wonderful, new, exciting chapter in your life. Be proud of yourself for you have accomplished this thru many obstacles. You can and will succeed at whatever you dream, so dream big...you have so much inspiration and strength! Thank you for being you, sharing and inspiring me to reach my goals also.

Thank You, Everyone! It means a lot to me to have you guys there for me.

This time tomorrow it will all be over... just like that. I am very excited and cant believe thats it about to be over. It has happened so quick that it totally passed me by when I blinked. Im sure you guys know what thats like.

Today was crazy. I was driving around all day going back and forth from school. My neice graduated kindergarten! lol And then when I got down I decided to go swimming with a bunch of friends at the creek and it was great. Except for the big chunk of my knee that is missing.... I slid on some rocks when i was stepping back into the water. I slid down them(about waste deep) on my left knee with my right foot planted and my arms out for balance! It looked VERY smooth! But, the slippery rocks were very sharp and jagged so... I had to slide down them cause I couldnt stop myself without causing more damage... But its okay. Im good!

I really cant believe that graduation is tomorrow. But, I am very glad. Im so happy really. I have this sense of individuality more now than ever. I just dont know how to explain it.... lol Its an amazing feeling. Hopefully I can put a picture on here of me recieving my diploma...then you guys can see me actually graduating!

Well, wish me luck. Tomorrow is going to be a HUGE day and Im sure it will go by fast and before I know it.... I will be heading to bed and it will all be over. Thanks so much for all that you guys said! It means alot to me that I have you all, my second family.

Congratulations! I am so proud of you. You have so much on your plate and I love the way you pushed so hard for something that was important to you. You are a motivating force to many, many of us who need a voice out there, sure, but more than that, we need to see a woman of action that goes for the things she wants.  Congratulations, and be sure and reward yourself for this huge accomplishment in your life. Excellent job!!

I graduate in about an hour and a half and I am sitting here thinking about everything. I have to get ready...

I cant help but think about everything that has happened up until this point. This is a HUGE milestone in life and it has gone kind of fast. But, Im glad its here. I keep thinking of all the people that will be there tonight. And how many people will be there to see me. And how proud they are of me. I never really thought about it....but its a HUGE deal! lol I didnt realize that until right now. Im thinking of all the memories I have of school and everything. Everything that has happened outside school. All the good....and BAD things that have happened. All that I have struggled with and come out on top. Im graduating with an A average. Im the first to go to college. Im ranked 11 in my class of 101. And well... most importantly, Im still here and Im getting to recieve my diploma!

It feels really good, like this makes everything worth it. So... Im very excited. Very nervous. And very scared. I hope things go smoothly because I have such butterflies right now and my anxiety meds sure are NOT working..

And, another thing... I wish my Grandma and my other grandmother were here to see this. I have always imagined my Grandma being there and her face and how proud she would be. I know she is.. I still wish she could be there in person though.... but things are as they are.

Thanks to everyone, really. I'll be at graduation in an hour.. and walking across the stage in approximately 2 hours from now..

*HUGE BREATH*

I made it guys! =]

It went well... It was outside for the first time (our class has always been the guinea pigs) and it finally cleaned and stopped raining..the sky was blue and at the end of the ceremony there was an awesome sunset! So, it was very surreal... It was slow leading up to us walking out, but then it went fast and before I knew it... it was my turn to walk and get my diploma! It was so crazy.. just didnt seem like it was already time to be doing that... ya know.. it still doesnt. But... now.. Im a graduate! lol Its so weird to be able to say that. For once Im can finally answer "what grade are you in?" with "Im a college freshman!" It stinks that my birthday is at the END of the summer so I wont even be 18 until then... so I seem so young to a lot of people when I tell them that..

Well, Im still in a daze and I slept pretty late today. I was exhausted last night after that and then going to eat so.. Thanks for all of the support I have recieved from you guys.. it means A LOT to me!