Hey, but 8-12 hours a week can still be a lot! You should give yourself props for that!
I know just what you mean, though, about
living with the pain. Not a day goes by for me when I do not have pain in my body somewhere and since I don't take any meds, I don't get any relief, even if it's just a foggy headed pain reliever kind of relief. I rely a lot on books and t.v. and the internet, but sometimes that stuff gets old and you just want to be able to go out and DO SOMETHING! But unfortunately life is what it is now with fibro and I can't just go out and do anything anytime I want to anymore. On days like that I want to crawl out of my skin and just not feel it anymore..those are the days when I will go in the bathroom and cry a little, take a hot bath, put on some comfy clothes, wrap myself in moist heat, make some tea, and watch something really funny. Sometimes it's all you can do, you know?
Anyway...I know JUST how you feel and I am sending you some good thoughts and prayers and I hope you get a little relief somewhere. Please be gentle with yourself and know that you can always come here and vent to us or send an email to me or another member if you need to. We're here and we care!
{{{{gentle hugs}}}}
~Danielle