Someone recently suggested that I could be suffering from RSD. I never was foggy before. I did seem to feel sicker and more pain after my last surgery. Except that the pain never came from my abdomen. It seemed to start in my elbow...then down to my hand. Hell...either way...it's like a life sentence. I don't normally feel depression I can't handle but the past year...it's so hard. My usual anxiety or whatever level I've lived at before...is like its amped up (although to be fair, I'm about
a month from homelessness with credit in the 550's, so housing is a huge problem, my meds cost a lot, insurance got changed...and either the Lyrica is causing D or the Crohns is) to levels that I just can't handle.
I'm tired. I didn't work Saturday. It was a 9 hour day...which is money in the bank...but I felt sick and couldn't stop fighting nausea and the pain in my feet. Anyone else get intense sorta...stepped on a nail pains when you put pressure on the bottoms of your feet? I'm always headachy which is sort of from all the sleeping but I give up. Is this a life sentence of WHAT?! LOL. If we could pass this disease to people who cause pain in others...like criminals...haha...life sentence...they can't move from their beds.
I know...morbid. That's me. I'm avoiding my mother. Not taking her calls really. I can't stand to talk to her. I don't want anything to do with her. I may end up living WITH her because we don't have much choice left. My poor sweet beloved husband is tired. I sort of miss sex...but I think he's going to be too careful and ruin it all when we do again. 'Course...the past few months...when we're gonna, I take pain meds ahead of time. Yeowch. Sounds awful. Gosh...I feel awful...truly. Get up and stretch? HOW? It hurts to walk back and forth from the bathroom.
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