When is enough enough??

Hi everyone,

 

I do generally believe that we are not given more than we can handle however I sure am being tested on that thought these days. As you can see from my signature below I have a few things on the go right now. I am also in the process on changing pain meds as the ones I am on are no longer working and that is a fun trip in its self. So just to add some more fun to the mix... I have my third thyriod ultrasound this month to see if the noduals have again grown and multiplied and see where that leads to.

I have not had my monthly visitor for approx. a year and a half now but last month I had a bit of bleeding. I already know I have a polyp and I had it checked last year and it was fine then. Mentioned this to my doctor so now with the polyp and the wee bit of bleeding off for another ultrasound. So really with Fibro and all of the othere issues I have on the go lets add a couple more that could lead to the big C or at least some surgery. So as I said in the subject line.... When is enough enough????? 

 

I have a lovely daytimer that I take with me everywhere I go. Once upon a time it was filled with meetings, conferences and happy things. Now it is filled with doctors appointments and tests

I also start to see a therapist tomorrow and I am actually looking forward to that:-)

Lorraine

It's overwhelming. That's why I'm here, too! And this forum has helped me so much in the 6 weeks or so I've been on it. (It says my join date is 2008 but I don't remember that!) Try not to be too hard on yourself, that's one thing I've learned. Hope the therapy goes well.

I am handling my health things ok, it's the rest of my life that is starting to wear me down. I'm starting to dread the phone, email, and the mail. I have never been hit with so many things all at once. Uggghhhh.

I am a stress eater. I know it so I should be able to control it better. Nope, I've put on twelve pounds since February.

Thank you so much everyone. Your well wishes and prayers have made me feel so much better. I used to look at this site from afar and see how nice everyone was... now I really feel blessed to be apart of such a great family. There really is no other place or people that can understand what we are going through. I really do appreciate each one of you and I will try to take one day at a time

 

Hugs,

 

Lorraine

You go girl! Sock it to them. I'm rooting for you again and again and again. If you can keep going then I know I can keep going.

HARA

Acheybody said...
Good for you! I notice you love cats - me, too. I never really appreciated them until Tom came into our lives about 12 years ago. The coolest cat in the world. I could write a sonnet about Thomas but I guess I won't subject you to that.

I have two kitties also. They at times make me laugh and other times I have to get up and try to kill them because they did something wrong. At least they make me move about.

HARA 

H Hi lorraine. I love your sense of humor. That in it self is something that can really help to keep you going. You let me laugh when reading your chats.... I just wanted to thank you for that... and i really hope you get the ssd. We all deserve it. I too have 2 cats. I love them dearly, If i didn't they would be gone already for some of the things they did. I am sending a huge (((((((((((( hug )))))))))))) and hope it goes to everyone here who reads this. Laura :)

I agree with this subject too!  I've had days where I'm waiting for extra hands to appear to clean the house and the big answer book to fall out of the sky so it can at least answer why we get chronically sick and how we keep the backbone to walk tall and smile.  I'm not sure if this will help you cope, but I have a cat who acts more human than cat.  Even tho I am allergic to him I still get the biggest enjoyment and love from him than any other cat I have owned.  His name is Duncan (Scottish pride) and he will let you know when it is petting time and what you were doing was not as important anyway.  He lets me hold him like you do a baby over my left shoulder and my husband can hold him like mr. bigglesworth from austin powers.  He'll drag his yellow feather on a stick around like a baby and can only put it on something else otherwise he looks at you and meows like "where do I put it now?"  He crows at you when you come home until you pick him up.  Then he'll race around like something shoved a rocket up his butt because he has to or just went to the bathroom.  He is the funniest thing and the sweetest thing in the world.  I know that if you get a cat like him that he will distract you enough from feeling like the tons of weight is getting to be too much.  I'm sorry if this doesn't help, but to be honest I've been dealing with this since I was 15 and now at 24 I can't remember a time without fibro, heartburn, migraines, arthritic hands and feet, IBS and so on.  Plus my dad has a slight handicap and has helped raise me to believe that you can do anything you set your mind to until your handicap puts a stop to one or two things.  I think it would also help you if you tried to look at it as I have limitations and there seem to be more.  So let's reevaluate what you want out of life.  For me I want to be a casual girl who doesn't always get fancied up to do groceries, an easy job, and at least one child because I don't know if I can give two as much care and attention (cuz I'll never run outta love) as I could with one baby.  My husband helps, but he doesn't have boobs.    Bottomline I, myself, couldn't tell you the ultimate answer to when is enough enough.  But I think that looking at things in a simple light helps you deal with the tons of weight and relax.  My husband's always telling me that I can't sit here and get myself excited because my pains will not totally go away, because getting upset all the time is counterproductive.  I hope you feel better than now really soon!!!

Lorraine, I could have written your post. I've been reflecting lately about this last year and why things keep piling up. ALOT has changed. Like you, my date book was filled with meetings, conference calls and "busy" things. All that changed April 9, 2009. My calendar logged 54 doctors visits, labs and specialty tests from that date til the end of the year. If you do the math you will see that in 9 months that averaged 6 visits a month, 1.5 visits a week. And this year is looking about the same. With every visit, lab or test comes another diagnosis. There never seems to be an end to it all. But what can you do?

I, too, am a cat lover. Right now I only have one. He is such a handful but I love him. Hubby got him for me in 2004, right after Hurricane Charlie. I was at my lowest point and wanted a cute, cuddly ball of fur. We had a female at the time who was anything but cuddly. She was a biotch! But we loved her anyways! However, I really wanted CUDDLY! Suki turned out to be anything but. Infact, I named him "Ute Suki Ahote", which means "little black wild thing". Turns out my hubby brought home a feral cat who was scared to death of everything. Over the years Suki has adapted to home life but still shows some tendencies towards being feral. Interestingly though, now that Suki is the only cat in the house, he has come to life. He can't meow so he makes this bleeting sound that's so funny. And he demands attention more than ever. Oh, did I mention he weighs more than 20 lbs? And his stomach drags the ground when he walks? He also has a "snaggle tooth" that he purposely catches on you to get your attention. Totally an awesome cat. He makes my days brighter even when everything seems so dark.

The only thing any of us can do is take one day at a time. That's all!!!

 Dogs have owners, cats have employees!  I don't know what I'd do without my sweet cat, he cracks me up even when he holds a grudge against me for a whole year after we went on vacation! (only me-the one who feeds him).

Hi Loraine!

I also think that your attitude can make or break us. But it's not easy to stay on top of a life with pain. Depression often comes along for a ride with chronic pain. When I say depression I think all of you know that it's not just that "bummed" feeling or being down because of the pain. Depression is a clinical diagnosis and is needs medical care. I think one of the smartest things you are doing is seeing a psychologist. There are also psychologists who special in chronic pain, for those who are interested.

I do wish you well and hope things begin to turn around for you!
Chutz