Pity party

I do not want to do this anymore. I have been bounced back and forth from autoimmune to fibro, am in pain, tired of being tired, allergy issues, and since getting a sinus infection two weeks ago, have had vertigo.  Had testing scheduled for tomorrow to get to the bottom of the vertigo and (hopefully) get it stopped...and yesterday woke up with a reaction to the antibiotics I was on for the sinus infection. Can't take the antihistamine to stop the hives AND have the vertigo testing done, so I've had to reschedule the test. I am miserable and tired of putting on a good show for everyone around me. Today I hate my life and want to crawl in a hole for as long as it takes to not want to be in the hole.

And did I mention the PMS? It's not helping. :(

Excuse me, I'm having a pity party.

There are worse things than pity parties!  And if you don't give yourself one, nobody else is going to!!

It's tomorrow...my pain has doubled, the rash is head to toe (even after antihistamines) and my test is rescheduled for next week. I am keeping myself busy at work even though I don't want to be here. So, in the midst of this little party I've come to the following conclusion:

The sun is shining, I have a lunch date with a friend and it's going to hit 60 degrees... I'm going to rejoice in that today. :) Who's with me?

Woohoo for the new haircut, Achey!! ;)

Sending you a big gentle hug. I think we all have felt like crawling in a hole at one point or
another, so we do understand. Hoping you feel better soon! Enjoy your lunch with your friend!!!
A big YEAH for the sun :)

Hugs, Robin

Sounds like one to just get through, come home & put your feet up & veg, if you can do that....

My boss has not only made yesterday a living hell, today is now headed that way as well, all becasue he is too selfish and lazy to do things the way they NEED to be done. Now I have to clean up his messes and then get the file closed. I'm not skipping lunch. I'm not killing myself for him any longer.

I need to exercise my power. :) I'm the only one who can do the work...I deserve to be treated better.

Boric acid and water eye wash? That sounds SCARY!!!!! ;)

You could ask the boss if he doesn't have time to do it correctly right now does he have time to do it over later? His choice...

The Peter Principle says that everyone is promoted to their own level of incompetence. Obviously this proves true for your boss.

Which means the boss is probably the problem. I'm with all of you. I wonder if I can explain how much pity I'm feeling for myself the past week. Just got out of the hospital after a 5 day visit (the second one in a month). Stupid stupid STUPID Crohns! And I'm not sure I can explain appropriately how much fun it is to have a Crohns flare which stresses my body and creates a fibro flare. I also went in the day my period started...and they just HAD to have a urine test so...I got cathed long enough to get a sample. THEN, I had an upper GI and colonoscopy and a small bowel follow through as well as a CT scan with contrast. Oh...and the lovely lovely pain. If it wasn't my gut, it was my whole body. And they wanted to give me those blood thinners if I stayed in bed all day but I said no after the first shot in my lower abdomen...where my period cramps were nicely situated. Instead, I was up and about all night long. At least this time, the nurses didn't make me feel bad about being unable to sleep. I'm feeling the biggest pity party for myself...but its probably depression instead. Always tend to get these post traumatic stress times after hospital stays. This time, I don't want to sleep, I don't want to move, I don't want to talk to anyone, I don't want to see anyone, and I derned well don't want to change out of my comfy sweat/pajamas. I can't stand sleeping in my own bed beside my DH and instead I'm situated on the couch where I am sleeping in the same leg elevated position as I did in the hospital. I know I left too early (they wanted me to stay until my pain levels were manageable) but I just couldn't stand the thought of staying a second longer. I wanted to go home and now that I'm here, I want to vanish off the face of the earth. Pity pity pity PARTY!!!! I do laugh at my silly mechanical dog, it snores and its tail wags and its jowls vibrate when you push the paw. The nurses called it a humping dog and all of them had heard about it came to see me. Why is it inside the hospital I do what I can to entertain nurses and other patients and be as pleasant as possible but as soon as I leave I'm angry and in pain and want to burn the world away like I burn inside. Ulcerations in the stupid ileum!

you did not say how old u r but I am 57 and about 6 years ago I kept complaining to my gyno and long story short I got a hysterectomy. It was the best thing that has happened to me and helped  with my fibro. I was sick the week before,week of and week after it hyped up my pain to horrible heights! Sound drastic? I would not recommend it lightly but for me it helped immensely. Never feel bad about a pity party, all of us fibro people need to validate our pain, I used to beat myself up about how others had worse things and I should be braver and stronger but WE DO HAVE LOTS OF PAIN and we should not have to lie about it, feel bad about it or deny it, to our friends, family, doctors and most of all ourselves. Why do we have to feel bad about asking our doctors for pain meds,why do they get to make us feel bad for asking!?  They would not think twice about handing out pain meds for many other diseases. Sorry I got on my soap box, I just get so tired of how doctors treat the fibro patient. I Have had some horrible doctors who have said horrible things to me until I said enough is enough! I have a pretty good doc now he trys everything to help my pain and lack of sleep. The first thing I said to him on my first visit was "I am NOT A DRUG ADDIC"  Iam in pain. Boy did I get going! Sorry I know how hard this is and I hope they find a cure because we are sick!