Posted 11/10/2010 4:38 AM (GMT 0)
Hi Everyone,
So glad to have found a place where people speak my language and understand what its like. I have been living with fibro, and all that goes with it,
for 15+ years. Diagnosed in 1995. I grew up with chronic pain, in my legs, back, etc. All the docs. said, "It's just good old-fashioned growing pains kid".
For as long as I can remember, the heating pad has always been my best friend. Actually have him on my back, as I type.
Some years, months, days are better than others and then there are "those" days, months, years when life just get a bit overwhelming, (to put it lightly)
if you know what I mean (ha-ha, cause I know you know what I mean).
The first half of this year, my pain was manageable. Then 3 months ago the flare ups came on with a "vengeance".
And this time around, it is accompanied by his dear old friend, "Adrenal Exhaustion", "IBS", "Panic Attacks" and "Anxiety". I literally felt (feel),
like I am going out of my mind. I am so fed up with this da@m pain and exhaustion, I could scream. Sorry, if I sound like a crazy.
Believe me, I do have my moments of sanity, I really do....:)! I just HATE pain.
I have racked up over $25,000 in med fees (no insurance) just in the last 3 months, from the ER visit(s), extensive blood tests, MRIs, CAT scans, colonoscopy, etc.... Because I was experiencing things I hadn't experienced before, like I could hardly move, 16 days of constipation, with NO relief. Pain Attack, so severe I thought I was having a heart attack. And, I know pain, been there many times, but somehow this time around, has been so different, much harder to deal with. It is hard to put it into words. However, I do know our family has gone through some pretty drastic changes, some good and some very hard, to say the least. After being a stay at home mother for 18+ years, who homeschooled my children, because I wanted to and loved it, suddenly I had to became a working women and all my kids went to school. The economy bit us hard, in the butt.
I do like the change, the kids are happy going to school, although it took some time for us all to adjust to the major changes, we have adjusted.
Could that have been my trigger? Very well could be, whose to know, for certain? BUT......
Enough about the complaining....Get on with it, already.
I am married to thee most wonderful man, on the planet (IMO), for 22 years. We have 5 beautiful kids, ages, 19, 17, 12, 9 and 6. (3 boys/2 girls).
And my 2 furry companions (dogs), who seem to always be by my side, unless of course, someone is in the kitchen making a meal.
We live in the beautiful state of Idaho. I am able to work part-time and go to school part-time, (most days).
Thanks for letting me vent. I look forward to meeting a lot of you. Kelly