Hello Dani:
I know exactly where you are coming from I was a very entergetic, outgoing person who worked out at the gym 5 days a week for over a hour each day! I was lifting free weights and bar weights, and lifting more than some men in the gym. I went from this person to the person i have been since i was diagnoised with fibro/severe depression in 2004. Now i begin my story i came from a very verbally abusive home, mostly my father, i left home at the age of 19 and moved 500 miles away and started to have a normal life near my only other sibiling (sister) who ended up be a mess when i got here so life is upside down again. My sister was a hour away from me here in NC , but she was constanly leaning on me for support and bringing her problems in my life such as her drug addiction, drinking, spouse problems.(By the way she left home at 16 with her first child and married to a man who was stationed at Fort Bragg the marriage and child lasted two years after her depart from home). My parents took guardianship of her two year old son when i was only 13 or 14 i became instant babysitter overnight. Back to story i had a job lined up for me before i even moved here, i was working meet a man who was very whealthy in my town we dated for 5 yrs. , but never married, he was constanly cheating on me. I finally kicked him to the curb and began my single life again, partying with friends all the time, working out, going to college 4 nights a week and working over 40 hrs. a week. I still during all this had my sister to contend with, i meet a man at 30 yrs.old and he had been married with one son, but was now divorced. We dated two years and got married i was 32 then, two years after our marriage i came down with a horrible flu and continued to have swollen glands for over 4 months until they finally diagnoised me with fibro/severe depression. I became addicted to the pain meds. and stated getting a drinking problem over the last 6 years. I now have been clean from pain meds for 7 months and no drinking for 2 months. In between those 6 yrs. i became pregnant and that is what has saved me i was clean during my pregnancy he 21 months old and i did not drink either while pregnant, but got post partum and began drinking a little nothing like before and was on the pain meds again, but now i am totally clean of both and mentally happier than i have been in over 10 yrs. our really big stresser right now is of course i have constant pain, but have learned to control and that my husband has been laid off for over a year and his calendar year ended in october for unemployment, we only have my SSDI check once a month and thank god that pays the mortage, but leaves very little to take care of all the other nessary things we need. I am so thankful for god and my family especially for god giving me this precious angel and that i wake up alive every morning. I hope some of words have helped i know this is long, but this is also helping me cope with my problems. God Bless and please post me anytime you need to talk!!!
Carrie
fibro/depressionmom