I don't feel sick. Sick to me is congestion, sneezing, vomiting, diarrhea, fever, etc. I feel beat up. I feel injured (well, some days). Like my rheumatologist told me when he first diagnosed me: "I hate to tell you, but you are going to live a long, healthy, pain filled life!" No, he does't know that I'll live long for sure, but based on my labs (liver enzyme, cholesterol, CBC, chem panel, etc - being picture perfect), as things are now, I'm a picture of health.
When I think about
things "pre-fibro" I say "back in the good ol' days..." when I was in the Air Force, was a fire fighter, I worked out all the time, I worked full time, I could chop wood with an axe, you name it. I was a strong girl!! Now, I have trouble lifting my own butt out of bed in the morning
.
I was watching Sarah Palin's Alaska yesterday. Not sure if should admit this but I like her. And the more I learn about
her, the more I like her. The reason I think, I used to be just like her. Vey strong, very independent. I could shoot a shot gun with no problem, I wasn't afraid to get my hands dirty. I was all about
doing for myself. Watching her last night made me really miss "the good ol' days" and I think and she's inspiring me to try harder, to get stronger... so that maybe I can do more for myself.
Anyway, speaking of getting stronger, I have to get off the couch and do something
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