It's impossible for me to put everything into a "short" paragraph, as I have just way too much going on. And I want to give you a clear snapshot of what my life is really like...
It's hard to tell what's FM and what's not, especially since FM exacerbates any independent issues one may have. Ex: my bulged and torn disks shouldn't be causing an issue, but the FM makes it almost debilitating.
Without medication I can't get out of bed, never mind work or even walk. With medication I can walk, with a cane. Work, to some extent. Do house- and yardwork, with a mobility walker (
www.medicalequipmentwichita.com/ for those that don't know). I often get confused, and have that "brain fog", which to me feels like I'm stoned (or drunk). I often have trouble remembering or concentrating, I sometimes feel like an Alzheimer's patient in that regard. Without medication I can't eat, I have trouble urinating, I have severe bowel cramps. Every morning I wake up, I feel as though I have barely slept, even if I do manage a full night (6 hours, for me, is a full night). Every moment of every day my muscles and other soft tissues feel as though I just spent 3 hours at the gym. Exercise increases this. Laying down to sleep is excruciating, as every single pressure point is screaming at me. Without medication, I do not sleep. Literally. Imagine sleeping only 2-4 hours for every 32 hours awake. I must get adequate sleep, adhere to a strict diet, strictly adhere to my med schedule, and be as active as possible, or my symptoms worsen.
Today is a good day: I'm tired, I'm sore, I'm slightly foggy, my stomach hurts, I can't eat. But I got out of bed, took the dogs for a walk, and shopped. I even put my name in to go to work today. I may even go out and do yardwork.
Unlike others, I will never accept this. Adapt, deal, but never accept. I will continuously keep up to date on every single research paper and clinical trial that comes out. I will continually try every single new method, device, or drug that might make me feel human again. Some deal through acceptance, which is fine. I deal through fighting, which is fine also. Although, I think, I'm a slightly unique case around here. The FM is "attacking" my entire digestive tract, making it impossible to eat or drink a thing without drugs (3 days with neither food nor fluids is seriously pushing one's luck
). In the beginning, I only had two options: lay down and die, or fight and find a way. I guess the fight just stuck with me.
As has been already said: stay as active as possible, eat healthy, keep positive thoughts, when the pain is at it's worse do something to distract yourself. Do not allow it to take over your life. Find something to live for, and focus on that instead of the pain. Find a support group (real time, not internet). My family is useless, so I use my in-laws as my support group... and my dogs, and of course my partner