Posted 9/21/2011 6:31 PM (GMT 0)
Thanks guys! It was nice to smile and feel good today. Hey, this is just another step along the way. It may make it a little harder, but I can do it. I calmed down enough to do meditation and stretches this morning and have been getting things in order. It takes me so long to do anything anymore! Makes me so angry.
Anyhow, I am T2 N1 MO. That means that the tumor is more than 2cm, 1 lymph node is involved, and there is NO metastasis. I am very grateful for that one! I am to have surgical resection, radiation therapy, and adjuvant chemotherapy. (I had to go look up what the heck adjuvant meant).
I keep thinking, wow what a dream I had. Then it hits me that it's real and you just gotta pull up the big girl panties and go on with what has to be done. I go in tomorrow to start paper work and bloodwork. Fun. Not sure when my surgery will be, or if they will do chemo first. I am sure I was told that but I can not remember. Imagine that. I am very worried about being knocked out though. My lungs are so bad and laying flat will make that awful and my back will be angry for days afterward.
I really am not suprised at all of this, when I think about it. I knew my chances were getting pretty slim. My father, grandfather, grandmother, niece, uncle, 2 aunts, sister and mother all have had cancer. All have survived, so I will just join their winning ranks. And the upside is that I have wanted a boob reduction and lift since I was about 28, so I guess now I will get to have it when this is all said and done!
Kepp up the fight!!