Sorry your hurting so very bad. I know we all understand here. I myself and going through a flare up that has lasted 4 months. I can remember just 2 years ago I ran a 10 acer farm on my own where we have about
100 animals. I cant get to work and I think I am going to lose my job. Your right it is hard to stay postive and be greatful. But at least everyday we wake up. At least everyday I have my dog that makes me smile. I know its hard but look for the little things in everyday. The sunrise, the sunset, a flower, a new snow fall..just look for the little things and smile. :)