Today my mind- body relationship is in the toilet

Yes, even positive thinkers can have Why Me? days. Feeling angry, tired, frustrated and overwhelmed with flare pain and a bad cold. I'm riding the emotional rollercoaster and this ride has been going steady for the last few days. Logically, I know being angry is a waste of energy but somehow I need this rebellion right now. Hopefully the power of meditation and prayer can calm me down and get me off this ride. I like my positive side much better.

Hugs, Robin

 

Robin, yes I know how you feel. I went through that yesterday. I felt like crying. I was hurting all day and I just wanted to be normal. I do so much better if I have my day full of activites. Too much time on my hands gets me in trouble. I usually plan something on Friday, but I was so sick yesterday I didn't schedule a ride to do anything today. So here I sit thinking what I could do? It ok Robin to have those days. I was noticing in healthy people that they go through the samething. As long as we don't stay down for too many days will be ok. I love listening to music or go for a walk on those rough days. May the Lord comfort you today.

LOL. Robin, you are so funny! Yes, the freezer is the place to check first. LOL

You will have plenty of time to go to the mountains and your hubby knows that too. He wouldn't want to go now because he wants to go when BOTH of you will have a wonderful tome. Who knows? Maybe next weekend! I'll be praying for that.

Sherrine

Thanks Deb...I know you must be frustrated about the pain pills. You've been trying so hard to cut back. If you need pain relief, you need it. You didn't ask for that crummy shoulder.

Let your daughter get her room ready. Debbie, you need to take care of yourself. You are too sweet for your own good! Remember care for the caretaker! You are always doing for others. I know how you missed her when she left.

I haven't found my happy face yet. I may have to paint one on, till I find it. All I need is a fright wig and a clown suit.

Hugs, Robin

Aw, thanks, Robin. Nice of you to say that. Actually, I can be a real grouch at times ;)

The stuff I'm talking about, no one else can do. I've got dozens of little piles (photos, cards, genealogy, drawings) half-finished, spread all over, and they have to be moved just so, or I'm back to square one. To anyone else, the room looks like a bomb hit it.

But I wouldn't dream of doing any heavier work - I leave that to the normals!

I hope you're taking it easy, too. So glad you've got a compassionate hubby. Mine is too, for the most part...that helps so much.

Take care and feel better soon!

Debbie

Decided to take a moment, pop in, and read through the posts.  I've been working like crazy on my garden, between the rain-drops, so have been MIA!

Oh my.  Can I relate to this post today!

Our beautiful 15-year-old dog passed away today.    We knew it was coming, but I wasn't prepared for all the Kleenex I went through today.  Hubby is talking about another dog already, and I'm stuck on "ouch--this really hurts."  I miss that ol' pup so much already.  We always took walks together, so I'll have to now get off my backside and walk alone til I have a new walking pal.

I know things will get better, but I sure miss this little friend.  RIP, sweetie. I hope you're in doggy Heaven, running like you used to when you were younger (and you took ME for a walk LOL!).  You'll always be in my heart.

Here's to much happier moments ahead, starting with a good weekend for all. 

So sorry for your loss Luvzminis.. our fur babies take us just the way we are.
I see mine playing & rolling around in the grass with no more pain; bless her heart we had that in common for awhile.

The next time I get up I'm gonna check t freezer for my happy face. Better write myself a note right now or I will forget ;o

I am blaming this go around on the weather + over doing.

Finally broke down & started taking my break-thru pain med & muscle relaxers this morning .. it is day 3 of this .. I could not stand it any more.. maybe some restful sleep tonite..??

Wishing all of you peace & lo-pain

I am so sorry to hear of everyone's sadness right now. I know how you feel. We try so hard to remain positive, to do all the right things...positive affirmations, gratitude lists, stretching, exercise, eating right, supplements, getting enough sleep and then BAM...something happens and just slams you up against the wall and you end up at the bottom of that dark hole again, fighting your way out of it. I know this is the fibro forum and I am referring to depression but for me and I believe for a lot of fibromites, FM goes along with anxiety and depression. I mean, how could anyone have long term chronic pain without some depression? Well, I am right there with you...I had about 5 really good months. I had the depression in check, I mean it was GONE, pain was tolerable most days, anxiety not too bad. I really felt I had everything under control. For me, it began with the loss of my nephew, then a friend of the family, then I had to move my mom from assisted living to skilled nursing and as her power of attorney, it has been one decision after another, having to spend just about every day there and I guess it was all just too much. I am back on the right path, no not in a real good place yet, but I think I am getting there. I continue to try to manage my depression without medication, with the help of a psychotherapist. I believe in her; I believe she can get me through this. I pray for all of you that you find what you need to help you too. I really believe as fibromites, we truly are very strong, resilient people. We get knocked down, but we keep getting up and fighting again.
Gentle hugs,
Miriam

It's always good to hear from you, Miriam. Sorry you've been having such a rough time, and also that your mom has had to go to a nursing home.

2008 was the year I'll probably never completely recover from. I was already doing a lot to help my parents...mom in a nursing home and dad in an "independent" apartment in the same complex. Our son graduated from college...a week later our daughter graduated from high school. The next day, mom went into the hospital and died 10 days later from sepsis related to lung disease.

Dad had kept from everyone the fact that he was also dying - from probable ALS. I was trying to do everything that needed to be done - as you said, making all the decisions and being there constantly. 4 months later, he was gone too. The constant pushing beyond your limits really wears you down, not to mention grief. I'm glad you're working with a psychotherapist you like and trust.

Yes, we are surely fighters!! We have to be. Life challenges us constantly.

I'm sorry for all of your losses, too. And I hope you keep feeling more "up."

Hugs, Debbie

Thank you for the sympathy in the loss of our dog, friends. I don't know when I've been so weepy, but I guess I was extra-close to this dog since we got him about the same time my fibro started, and I'm usually home with him. I think some of it is that we've just had a really nasty year so far--one of those "oh oh, here comes another thing to deal with." But God is good, and there's always light at the end of the tunnel.

Debbie, I thought of you yesterday and remembered when you lost your pet. It's heart-wrenching, but I guess they have done their jobs here, and need to rest. I believe someday we'll understand the 'why' when we ask the reason bad/sad things happen.

Wishing you all a very positive day ahead! Life goes on.....

couchtater:  So glad your kitty is better.  Give her a little mini hug for me.

Luvzmini, I am so sorry I did not mention you in my previous post and the loss of your beloved dog. I don't think there is a person alive that is as crazy in love with their dogs as I am. You can see where my head is at, to have not even mentioned your loss. Again, my deepest condolences. Our animals "fur kids" have a way of comforting us, I believe it is their unconditional love. They could care less if we haven't showered because we've been in too much pain, or we are crabby because we feel so crappy. And when we cry, well, not sure about any of yours, but my Golden Retriever, Cheyenne, whom I have had since he was 7-1/2 weeks old, will come and sit by my side, and then carefully place his feet between my knees on my chair and come up and place his warm furry face against my cheek and lean into me, as if he is hugging me. At least I like to think that is what he is doing. He is so affectionate, so loving and lives to please me. I have had many dogs and cats over the past 30+ years, but this one is very special. He will be 10 this year and I pray every single night that he stays healthy and lives a very long life. I am also very involved in rescue, working with a Golden Retriever rescue in northern Illinois that also takes in golden mixes. It has given me a purpose, a feeling of giving back and that is helping me to lift my spirits.

Debbie, anyone that has had to caregive a parent or a loved one understands the tremendous stress that goes along with it. My mom has Alzheimer's. She was diagnosed ten years' ago and her journey continues. I had no choice but to move her, she simply ran out of money. She lived in a private pay assisted living facility for four years and that ate up her savings. I went through hell applying for public aid for her and we still don't know if she will be accepted. I am SO grateful that I was able to get her into a place that is considered one of the best in this area and they do accept Medicaid, so she is now considered "public aid pending" and are not requiring money, well they take her social security. I worry that because she is public aid, she won't get the same quality care and that is why I was going there so often. I just want her to be safe, to feel safe, to not suffer. I sometimes feel like she is going to outlive me, I wonder what all this stress is going to do to my health. So I see my therapist and she is getting me through all this, thank God for her.

and...I rambled on again...

be well everyone,

Miriam

Oh, no Luv! Sorry to hear of the passing of the puppy. They are our family.

All caregivers, whether of humans or animals, need special hugs.

I am trying, with breathing and mindfulness, to stay positive and be in the moment. Sometimes, this is all we can do.