I suffered from depression/anxiety for many, many years. I was on an antidepressant for 22 years and finally with the help of a psychotherapist, weaned off of it about
three years' ago. Then I stopped seeing her, thinking she gave me the tools I needed to deal with depression and I did well for a year. Then I lost a good friend to breast cancer, and then five other people I knew passed away and I think all this triggered the depression to begin again and it was out of control. So I went to see a psychiatrist who put me on Cymbalta which I began at the lowest dose and titrated up to 60 mg and got the worst case of diarrhea that well, I will spare you the details. Let's just say I couldn't leave the house. Worse yet, my depression worsened. She kept telling me to stay with it, then had me take half in the am and half in the pm and nothing made it better, so she switched me to Pristiq stating that in no way would this happen again...well it happened again, both diarrhea and severe depression. I went back to my psychotherapist and weaned off the antidepressants. It's now been three months that I have been off of them and I have not had ONE bout of depression. Within that time, my nephew passed away, only 45 years' old. Of course I grieved, but I didn't fall back into that black hole. I have been able to manage it with therapy along with positive affirmations, which I do daily, sometimes several times a day. I have learned to let the past go. I realize I am in control of my life. What happened in my past happened and I suffered greatly from it, as a child as well as an adult, but I now realize I have the power to fix myself, to let the past go and move on. I still am struggling with anxiety and still need to use meds for that but I know in time I will get a handle on that too and get rid of the meds. I am convinced that we have the power to heal ourselves. I am certainly not there yet. I still deal with chronic pain, in fact, I just went for an epidural injection today, but I am managing it all. I am not allowing it to take over my life. Chronic pain is a part of my life, but it doesn't stop me from living my life. I won't let it any longer.
I hope this helps someone else. My only regret is that I didn't realize I had the power to fix myself when I was younger.
hugs
Miriam