I'm sorry you are going through this; I went through something similar earlier this year. Mine turned out to be benign, but it was definitely a scary time for me. Hang in there. I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
And I know what you mean about
being reluctant to take all of your health issues to the doctor. I have so many different problems that I once jokingly asked my doctor if he thought I was a hypochondriac. He was like, "Well, I might think so, but you have pathology for pretty much every complaint you have." Meaning, if I think something is wrong, it usually is and can be identified.
If a hysterectomy is in your future, you might check out the website called "Hystersisters." It is a health forum run by and participated in by women who have had or are contemplating hysterectomies. It is a very active forum and is a gold mine for information about
hormones, gynecological cancers, what to expect before, during, and after surgery, etc.