I smoke. I used to say that I liked to smoke and I really think that I did. I have made some progress, (baby steps) and have reached the conclusion that I don't like it anymore however I am addicted. I got terribly ill in March of this year. I started with the flu that lasted for nearly 2 weeks. That turned into a nasty sinus infection, then bronchitis and finally laryngitis. I was sick straight through till sometime in May.
During that time when the flu was so terribly bad, I was delirious with fever.....I couldn't smoke. When I started to break the fever I had (I am certain), made it through the withdrawl faze and didn't even want one. I went a few days without one. That was a MAJOR hurdle for me since I have been smoking 2 packs a day for as long as I can remember. I started when I was 14. I just turned 41 this week. hum. Maybe that is a sign for me to stop....I have now flipped those numbers!
Anyhow, when I recovered from the flu and the other ailments started in on me I picked the ciggs up again BUT I didn't keep them near me (like usual). I kept them in my purse in the kitchen and I was spending most of my time "dying" on the couch. I smoked considerably LESS when they were not right by my side and one was available without me even thinking about them. I stopped buying 4 packs at a time and for a while I wasn't even smoking 1 pack a day.
I am back to my "normal" routine and hating myself for it. On a positive note, I just bought a new Jeep and have YET to smoke in it. I swear there is no smoking allowed in it EVER. I have also decided that when we get new carpet (early fall) that my house will be a smoke-free zone as well.
DH also smokes and wants to quit too. He did years ago for about 8 months and life with him was HELL. I can't be around *some* reformed smokers.
I guess I am going to start out slowly and give myself time limits. No smoking before 9am (or similar) and keep taking those baby steps. I have to have a plan to follow. I can't ever see myself just stopping cold turkey or by taking meds. I know me and that isn't something that I would have any success with. I need GOALS to work towards. Sort of like trying to test myself. It's that type-A personality rearing it's ugly head!