i'm in st. louis and yesterday was unbelievably awful...the humidity was off the charts (my windows had condensation on the outside) and it rained a fair amount. was exhausted most of the day, but couldn't nap, could never really get the edge off my pain; but it was kinda my stupid fault, as i failed to take my morning meds before i went to dierbergs.
lesson learned. 'nuff said. i pushed myself to get what i could and was thankful that yesterday was my son's last day of summer; and he was a dream and unloaded the car for me. i put the cold stuff away and left the rest on the counter for most of the day. i try to let those things go, but i've always been a little bit of a nut about
the appearance of my house...i stay home w/ the kids (9 and 13) and i feel obligated to live in a clean home. i was proud of myself to let that stuff sit on the counter...that was a HUGE step for me...i'm one to almost always make my bed (maybe 3 days a year i don't), but am not an enabler, either. i do make the kids help...my 13yr boy old took my "laundry 101" course this summer. he's gotta learn sometime, right? they are very helpful, and don't whine too much anymore; i guess they have realized it really won't get them anywhere.
i digress...today's weather is no better and i think it's not expected to get any better over the weekend. i really wish i had a hot tub or the extra funds to get a regular massage. this economy is killing us and while we live in a nice home in a nice neighborhood, it's getting tougher and tougher to live on one income. my medical bills/meds and my daughter's medical bills/meds are really taking a toll; not to mention gas, food, etc. i don't think i could hold down a part time job if i wanted to. i do a lot of volunteer work @ both schools, am a girl scout leader and a carpool mom.
how do i get out of this exhaustion? i slept well last night; only woke up a few times (numbness from lying in same position for so long), but went right back to sleep. my pm won't give me anything else for pain even tho my pain has worsened. he seemed irritated w/ me last visit even tho i was the one who was kept waiting an hour to see him. i don't even know why i had to come in, really. he asked how my pain was, i said not very good and he basically said, too bad, i'm not changing anything. i start pt soon; hopefully that'll help.
thanks for listening!