I want a new doctor amoung other things **RANT

So I'm looking into getting a different doctor than I currently have. I went to see him today about the extreme pain I have in my knees and express to him that i believe they are bothering me so bad because I worked yesterday. Now I didn't go in there with the intention of getting work off tomorow (although I would have loved it) what I was looking for was some solution to the problem of me being too exauhsted/in pain after work to carry on with the rest of my day and the fact that I don't think it's healthy (in a holistic view because according to my doctor "my pain isn't caused by any real cause" so I should pretty much work through it) for a 20 year old to have to second guess whether she's going to walk up a flight of stairs or not to get to her bedroom.

Basically his answer was i'm too young not to work and that I need to tough this out - all I really am looking for is a chance to recover and be the best situation I can to go back to work and being succesfull in continuing employment.

Right now I feel almost like quiting my job.  However... I know that I can't do that because I'll lose my health benifits... is there anything  I can do... I don't want to live my life for work I want to work to live my life... working shouldn't make your quality of life lower it should only be used to increase the quality of life. That in reality is the balance that one should concider on the terms of working. You have to ask youself "If I was totally healthy living under these circumstances would I be able to tollerate it, or would I choose to quit and search for another option of employment that would make my life easier... if I had the ability to leave and still  support my standard of living by other means would I." At this moment I am asking myself that... do I really have to wait until I get really sick before anybody will take me seriosly?

*cough* I'm intending of adapting this as a letter to the local hospital and also give this letter to the CEO of the company I work for, and email it to all my co-workers and manager... (I may scale back those efforts depending on how succesful they seem when I'm not baked out of my head)

If the mods take this part about **** I understand the legal gramifications on their part. But I must say I am   everyday and am  right now, and I have come to one of the biggest realizations of my life right now :P lol

My blog is http://muffinsforsale.blogspot.com/ if anybody is interested in reading what I have to say further on the subject... it's telling the story of my life with Fibro from "almost" the first day it started :P I'm just intersted on feedback and suggestions - I really want to be able to fight this... but I need people to help... and people who understand.

Thanks for listening.

**HappyThoughts

Hi, I am sorry that I had to delete a few words out of your post.  We are not allowed to talk of any illegal drugs on the forum.

Thanks for understanding

Karen

 

Post Edited By Moderator (getting by) : 11/5/2008 8:34:21 PM (GMT-7)

Looking for another job with the kind of benifits I require in the town I live in, there are choices of the Highschool, Elementary School, Post Office or the job I currently posses... unfortunatly I live in an isolated location in Canada... and in the less densely populated areas the main industries are resouce based (not any jobs that I'd be very equipped to handle).

The reason why I was concidering sending a letter to my CEO is because I have met him personally (he is the CEO of a small branch of credit unions) and I was working towards applying for a position in the youth advertisment sector - I wouldn't mind activly doing research for a program for that part time or from home. I'm wondering if he's intersting since I'm certainly not going to be useful the company if I continue at the pace I'm going... or if I don't get better. It is true that I'm only 20 and that I have the rest of my life ahead of me... so i need to find something that I CAN do until I can get better to have other options.

I'm really trying to anylitical about this... I think that if I can possibly convince that having me as an employee is an asset he might concider it as a possiblity... either that or I could keep trying to work my current job.

Honestly I'm really just looking for feedback on the feasiblity of this... could this be an attempt for me to not have to except reality?

I'm also activly looking towards another option of meaning employment to start a local game rental store.. I was wondering if anybody has heard or knows anybody who has any idea how to start a buisness like this.

The idea of the buisness is not necesarilly to rent video games... but to provide a place for youth to interact in a safe enviroment... and keep them off the streets at night... I would like it to contain not only a place for kids to rent or buy games... but to offer them a place to enjoy those games... have TV's and internet rental available (If I could run this off of some sort of grant... and set budget... I'd even be willing to work for a set wage and do all the planning myself but I'm looking at in a buisness sense so it's easier to plan for expenses and cost reduction) I would also like to offer computer access and internet access... put couches in the place... offer things for kids to do. We all know that Teens love the internet.. and use it for the gaming community almost as much as the games... and that's not all I'm proposing... but I have a lot of notes so it would take a long time to explain.

What I'm looking for is for something to replace the local Rec Center that has recently been forced to close down to keep kids occupied afterschool... something constructive and attractive.

Any ideas at all

Sorry I'm talking so much :P I'm just really interested in putting myself in the best position I can to deal with my fibro... and if that means activly looking into different options - that's what it means... but lol I'm only 20! I have some serious gaps in knowledge on how to do half of this! And I'm asking you guys.. because you understand the need to keep busy and productive as much as possible - most of my friends just think I'm crazy.