So I finally called my insurance company and my doctor and made the very emotional appointments and arraignments to get a wheelchair. At this point I dont need it 24/7 (besides, I cant push it myself! what a joke that would be!) With the nice weather coming up, I am hoping that it will be an investment in my family and my marriage and they wont have to hear me say, "Oh, I dont think I can do that." At least as much anyway!
The lady I talked to for my insurance company was so nice! I actually hung up the phone saying I loved her! hahaha How often does THAT happen with customer service?!? She was so patient with my fibrofog, even after she tried to read to me a web address at the speed of light and when my brain was more focused on her doing the stupid "D as in dog, N as in Nancy" bit instead of the actual web address (OMG I got soooo lost!) she didnt give up on me like I expected...she just giggled along with me and said, "How about
I read to you the phone numbers of the wheelchair providers closest to you?" OMG, genius and kind. Love her!
Then I called my Doc for the appointment I needed for the script
for the chair. And even though I am proud of myself being able to decipher all this medical mumbo-jumbo and do this advocacy for myself (stuff that a little voice in the back of my head is angry b/c it shouldnt be so ^%$#@ hard but it is for us!) I am sad and full of tears as I say my name, DOB, reason for appointment b/c I have that same pit in my stomach like when I start a new stronger pain med.....like I am crossing a line that I may never cross back over.
I am trying to focus on the positive. The freedom, less pain, more options. I can go up and down the Boardwalk this summer and not slow anyone down.
But still...there is that angry and sad voice...this isnt what I expected to be doing when I was 36. Oh well, wasnt it the great John Lennon that said, "Life is what happens when you are busy making other plans."