I hadn't heard from my dr after I had called her office, so when my DH and I had to drop papers at her office, I left her a note to call me. Before I could turn to leave, the dr was entering the office, saw me and came over to see how I was doing. I said I left a note for her to call me re: ??? I had. She took me into her office. When I said I had called a few days b/f to talk to her, she said she never got the message, but would speak w/ her staff. The receptionist was kind of brusque w/ DH and me when we entered the office. Anyway, the dr. said all my tests came up negative, pulled them up on her computer to show me. She feels it is anxiety/panic attack that is hitting me.
Today, I had to go for an ENG at my ENT's office w/ an audiologist. Very nice man. I had the first several tests for hearing, then he took me in for the balance test. He put a mask over my eyes so I was in total darkness. He put cool air in my left ear, slight feeling of dizziness. On to my right ear, even holding on to the chair, I thought I was going to spin out of it. He opened a vent over my right eye and things started to settle down. Then he put warm air in my left ear, again a slight sense of dizziness. When he put the warm air in my right ear, I thought, this is it. My head was spinning, I thought I would throw up. The test was over. He went to get me a drink of water, as I grabbed a Reglan from my bag. All of a sudden, my body started to tingle and freeze on me. He asked if I wanted my DH, YES! As he entered, he asked if it was the small feeling as 2 wks ago, Yes! Did I want to call an ambulance? No! I figured it would be a good time to find out if the pcp was right, I tried to calm myself, thinking this is just a stupid panic attack. My DH tried to rub my shoulders and neck to calm me, it didn't help, but I appreciated the effort. It took awhile, but my realizing this was 'just' a panic attack helped to bring it under control. My hands started to relax and release, first the left, then the right. My legs came around about 5 - 7 min later. I still had to sit there for a bit to get everything under control. My legs were like jelly at this point. I needed my husband to help me out of the office and into the car, but I got home ok. I laid down, he got ginger ale and pretzels for me, only thing I could hold down at that time.
My appt was at 8:45 this morning, and it is almost 7 pm now, but I'm grateful to feel well enough to come here and tell you what happened. I will hopefully get to the library this wk end to see about some books on Panic/aniexty. I will read them hopefully when the brain is not in the Land of Fog, and get some helpful info.
I got an answer from the dr that I wasn't expecting, I guess I was dealing w/ denial - AGAIN. But I guess she was right and now it is up to me to accept it and work w/ it.
God bless. Alice.