Donna, I'm so sorry to hear of Toby's passing. I truly believe our loving furry friends go to Heaven, and I'm sure that Toby is there, pain-free and at peace.
You have been so good to him these past yrs, he knew he was loved. That made such a difference in his life.
Now, you need to take good care of you. This is a sad time for you w/o your little friend. Treat yourself gently, let you heal, as this has taken its toll on you.
My thoughts and prayers are w/ you.
God bless. Alice.