I'm nearing the end of a difficult course, and I've tried to do the best I can. Another grad of the course referred me for a job and I tested. Well, there were 2 parts, and I failed one part, but did well on the other. The grad e-mailed me and absolutely CHEWED me out. However, at the end, after all the hate speech, she did say she still believed I can do the job.
My confidence level has SUNK and I just feel tired and depressed. I don't have to tell you how hard it is to find jobs these days, and there are even fewer options for those of us with health problems. I had been feeling so good and positive the past several weeks, and things were looking up. I think since the boss didn't seem to have a problem--she even told me she thought I could do another job that was open--the person who lashed on me was out of line. Why do people do that?? I think if needed, (and was it??) a gentle correction would suffice.
So I'm wondering: Could some (not all) of our fatigue, etc. come from sheer disappointment and a feeling of near hopelessness? I feel a bit better about things today, but it still bugs me. I've had numerous disappointments and losses in my life, and lost a very dear boyfriend years ago. Though I'm happy now, I still feel that loss. It's a feeling like something is clearly missing. I believe we all have to pick ourselves up and go on the best we can, but I can't help but wonder if the pain of all those losses and disappointments can contribute to our bodily misery.
Thanks for hearing me out!!