I've been reading the Fibro 101 links & it sounds like my TMJ & neck pain going back 10 years probably points to me having Fibro for a long time, just undiagnosed & getting worse this last year and a half, and specifically horrible since September. (I even performed at events in pain, which I probably shouldn't have, but I have always refused to give up...well, at just about
anything)
I've been exercising since Feb. 2003, and the last few months I've hardly done anything & have gained 40 pounds. I think, though, that I probably didn't have such a bad flare up for a long time simply because I kept active & tried as hard as I could to enjoy my life despite mind numbing pain at times.
Being a fighter has only helped me, too, because when my hubby lost his job in Aug. 2008 he got sick just a couple of weeks later & was put into the ICU. He had a foot of his colon removed. He almost died before they figured out what was wrong. He had months of home nursing & I had to learn how to administer IV meds, flush & drain tubes, take measurements of fluid coming out of those tubes, keep records on this chart, then he had another surgery to reverse his colostomy, more recovery after that. Who else was gonna work & take care of our 4 cats, the various needs of the house, etc... ? I had to buck up & do it myself. I never give up, even though sometimes I feel like I'm about
at my breaking point. When I'm teetering on the edge I pull myself back because you have to be strong to keep going, it's just a fact. You can't choose to be weak because that isn't going to help you or anybody else. If I want things to get better, going over that edge isn't going to get me there. I have to pull myself together & keep going. That's the only way it will get better. So, I guess that's why I've done so well at managing things up to now. I've had to. I knew eventually somebody would help me. I just had to fight to get there.
ETA : The bone crushing feeling in the knees & legs, OMG ! Could I have been symptomatic since I was a child ? I always thought my knee pain was something else entirely. Sorry, don't mean to keep talking so much, but it's all coming together. Everything I've had is coming up in the stuff I've been reading. I know it sounds silly, but I'm so glad to find out I have this ! LOL It explains so so much !
Post Edited (fitlissa76) : 1/14/2010 6:03:19 PM (GMT-7)