Thank you all - it is so nice to be able to vent to people who understand! I am just mad because she had told me she was comfortable prescribing my medication in March and I left the pain clinic - and now she won't prescribe it.
I think I use it sometimes as a security blanket of sorts. I don't take it very often, but it gives me confidence to go and do things and know that if I flare because of it I can get some relief.
I am looking forward to getting back to my water exercise class next week, 4 weeks from surgery, and I also get to start walking again. My dog will be so happy!
Sherrine - glad you weren't hurt more seriously! My dog has actually pulled me down once - the squirrel was just too much to resist! - and I was lucky I didn't get hurt. She wears a gentle leader now so she can't get that much momentum!
myjoy - I am the same way with the hydro - I think if you are not taking it regularly that you don't build the tolerance.
mt lady - thank you for the link - I like that they talk about quality of life issues and if they outweigh the risks of treatment. For my level of pain I don't need an opiod around the clock - my quality of life is good enough without it, but for others their pain levels may require the narcotics to maintain some quality of life. I don't think doctors should just make a blanket statement that they don't treat fibro with narcotics. We are all different.
Thank you everyone!