Shannon, you are VERY strong. Remember, you can do ALL things through Christ who gives you strength. He will, you know. You might even find it a comfort to be back in the bed your husband made for you.
My husband made the most beautiful stained glass lamp shades. They actually look like the ones that Louis Comfort Tiffany did. It was hard but they are all over my new home now. I look at them and see the pride and workmanship involved and the love of the art. You might feel that way, too, with your bed.
My husband always had the TV on in the bedroom to get to sleep. And because of that, I acquired that habit too. If you have a TV in your bedroom, try turning it on and watch a favorite program or a funny program and that might help you too. If all else fails, turn on the Weather Channel. That will bore you to sleep!
I will be praying for you and I think you will be just fine. Remember, you can email me. I'll be home all weekend if you want to talk.
Sherrine