I'd say I'm less so, now. Though I'm much more appreciative.
When I was younger I philosophized everything more, alot of that was naitivity though. I've since come to believe that sometimes there just aren't answers, at least not ones that we may ever find or understand in this lifetime.
As my energy has diminished, I've had to ration it and spend it on what was most important.
For me it's been about acceptance, which isn't to say I'm defeated.... just that I accept this much more and I appreciate what I do have instead of what I don't. I focus on the positives.
Finding this group has been one of the best things that could have happened to me. I have found so much comfort and inspiration, and I am continually reminded of all that I have to be thankful for.
I have seen in sooo many of you, strength beyond what you might even be aware of and an inextinguishable spirit that no illness can ever take. It comes through and you continue to shine your light onto others including myself.
I don't look back as much now. I keep one foot in front of the other. And I come here and draw strength and comfort, so thank you :)