I really don't understand what is going on with me. Its like a good thing that just can't be good. I feel numb, not shutdown just in a place of nothingness. I am a very emotional person. I've always sensed and knew thing. I can usually tell how my day will be from the start of the morning, but today nothing. I'm not in flip mode, happy mode, cry mode, confused mode, over thinking mode, just don't know nothing mode. I am just existing.
Alot of what i read and experience with fibro is scary because it effects so much of what was me. I love to write, I love to read and my body is hindering what i love to do, what I've always done. I"m having a few financial situations but thats the norm with the job I can hold down doesnt pay well but that is not what is going on with me. Normally I would be all shook up over bills, but I have no control over that so collectors will have to except what I can do or file a judgement(whatever).
After writing this I still yet feel numb. I'm trippin. Oh well I'd rather be feeling some kinda way, than to catch feelings and allow something or someone to set me off.
I figured it out its a peace that surpasses all understanding. Jehovah Shalom is here. I need to pray
My day has just been restored, I know where my help comes from.
Thanks healingwell for hearing a voice that know one else cares to hear.