I just want to feel normal again

Ok I am not depressed just feeling a little blue.

Yesterday we went to look in a new store that has open in our town, nice place. Even with the stairs in the place [but it had handles on the stairs.

Then I had to go and sit in the car I was exhausted [I had the 24 hour flu that lasted 72hrs].

Sitting there I watched all the NORMAL people walking around parking their cars getting out with LARGE handbags and just walking away.

A small hand bag is too much for me some times my wallet is too much, just being able to walk with out a care in the world is too much.

PLanning to have my hair done is too much I forget the appointment or it is late in the day and I am too sore to go.

Oh to be normal, to go and spend hours trying on NEW clothes that fit tight around the waist. That is long ago now everything needs to have elastic or it feels like I am being cut in half. Just having the right size clothes would be nice now everything is a size too big for comfort. Maybe that new fabric that is in fashion would be great, no that hurts or I am allergic to it.

Some new perfume would be nice, no I am allergic to that.

How about going out for a meal?

What you can't sit there it's too cold/hot what do you mean you need to get up and walk around you are stiff.

Shoes I would love those new ones in the window, high heels you say why not?

I forgot they make my feet ache, no they don't come in a flat. What about that pair over there? Ah yes maybe they are a little tight, I'll make do with these.

Yes that is the life of us who suffer from fibro, each day is a new day and I go on believeing each day will be better. I have too  or give up hope.

Kathy

FMS,CFS,IBS,Migraine,Menapause

Hi Kathy,  I know how you feel. I find myself  looking around at all the pain free normal people and  I want my health back.  I can't wear any shoes that don't hurt my feet.  I am allergic to perfume and hair dye and I feel so old because my hair is salt and pepper now.  I just told my son tonight "You know July will be three years that I have been ill.  I have had a burning, tingling, numbing pain in my right foot every day for three years. Yes I have most of the other fibro symptoms especially the morning stiffness and migraines but this foot problem has me depressed.  I have seen so many doctors looking for relief.  The latest has been physical therapy a couple times a week which has ran into hundreds of dollars and its not working.  I have read there is a link between fibro and mortons neuroma but can't find any relief.  The daily foot spasms keeps me from walking without pain, I can't go to the gym and I am miserable.  I have tried different supplements, various meds which I don't like taking and don't take often and a weak attempt to change my diet.  I have been juicing for about three weeks with some small meals but the problem is my sugar addiction.  I have cut back but can't get thru an entire day without some sweets.  I know they are bad for me.  I know sugar increases my pain but I am addicted.  How do I stop the cravings and quit the sugar.  That is the last thing I need to achieve to see if it makes a difference in this numb foot. Sorry I didn't start off being such a downer but its nice to be able to get it off my chest because I know you understand.

Hi Kathy,

Instead of focussing on what you can't do, try to focus on what you can. The list might be smaller, but it means a lot. We all understand what you are going through. Things get so depressing. Are you or have you thought about going to counseling? It does really help. My psychologist is familiar with fibromyalgia and even gives massage as part of her therapy. It is a real benefit for me. So try working on that. Move forward when you can. Let these thoughts of what you can't do go. And get yourself a bran new attitude towards life. I know, easier said than done. Yes it is work, but it can change your whole attitude on life. Life is really what we make it, fibromyalgia or not.

Feel better soon hon...

Hugs, Karen