Sometimes I just have to push myself

If I waited around to feel "good" to do things, I'd never get anything done. Just yesterday, I was feeling down and overly fatigued. I knew sitting around the house feeling sorry for myself wasn't going to make me feel any better, so I decided to go out and trim shrubs and water my flowers. The act of getting out and getting busy is usually all it takes to get my energy flowing again... yes, I was exhausted when I got done, but felt a lot better than if I would of stayed moping in the house.

Saw the rheumy today...looks like another diagnosis might be added. Hey, What's one more disease...they all feel crummy .My bloodwork has shown that I'm P- ANCA positive and showing some clinical symptoms for the autoimmune vascular disease, Microscopic Polyangitiis. My rheumy is being cautious with the wait and see attitude. According to him this vascular disease is better than some of the others. I'll just take his word for it. He will continue to monitor my bloodwork closely. This disease is treated with the immunosuppressive Methotrexate that I'm already on for the MCTD.

He said he might have to bump it up again...but at least it's not a whole new med to get used to.

It's funny but learning to deal with chronic pain has taught me how to deal with crazy life challenges...I feel a sense of calm, when in the past I'd be rattled. It took pain to teach me to be appreciative of all the good things in life.

Hugs, Robin

 

Robin- I am so glad we have each other for support. I know getting another diagnoses is not what you wanted. It's so hard to explain to normal people how we are so sick and tired of being sick. Lol I can relate to your story about getting the energy to do things. I finally have grinded a schedule in my head and body. It seems to work for me and keeps my body and mind busy. I am going to plant some flowers tomorrow if the weather holds up. The temp has been cool at night here. I just got back from the store and was upset because thousands of dollars of flowers just look dead because they didn't cover them up. It just a wast of money. Flowering is new to me, but I needed something to keep my mind healthy.

Boy, Robin, I do know the feeling.  My list of ailments continues to get longer...to the point that when I list them I end singing..."and a partridge in a pear tree"! 

 

But you ARE a strong person....REALLY!  So don't waste your time trying to convince yourself that you are something you already are.  (I bet that sentence has you confused!   )  You face your problems head on and that's how you can get them behind you.  So give yourself a gentle pat on the back.  You are doing wonderfully well in handling what Life is dishing out to you...and you do it with such grace.  Again, you are an inspiration to me and everyone on this forum.

 

Sherrine

Robin,

Don't feel bad for feeling a little down once in awhile. You are such a strong lady... I am sorry that you may have another dx to deal with. But I know you will push through it.

Keep posting and know that we all love you dearly... You are an inspiration to us all!!!

Hugs, Karen

I just wanted to thank you all for your kind sentiments.Even though I have family and friends who are encouraging and supportive, it is my fibro family that supplies that understanding nod...you all know what I mean...you all deal firsthand with the challenges of trying to just keep on keep'n on. Thanks my friends!

Hugs, Robin