3 months flare....afraid im gonna loose everything...need help

i really have no one else I can talk to right now, so glad for this group.

I'm having a really bad flare up, to the point that I am back to the way my pain was when I was first diagnosed. Everything hurts constantly. Nothing helps. Today Its hard to even sit here and type, or hold a pen. I despertly want to go back to bed. I keep having leg spasms, alsmost evedry day. I have a new doctor, mine that diagnosed me and has been with me since I was 13 stopped practicing. At first i liked my new doctor, now not so much. He seems like he is so flamergasted by my pain hes ready to right me off, if my mother had not been with me yesterday he wouldn't have helped me at all.

I love my job, well not love like I want to go to work instead of being home, but its a great job and its perfect for me and the pay is great. I want to work! Its a sit down job, yes, but even now its impossible for me to be able to sit and consentrate on what ai need to do.

I'm going crazy...depression is really bad. I'm loosing hope. I am one more day away from loosing my job, and the best week I have had in the last 3 months is being able to make it to work for 4 days, and 2 of which I was 2 hours late. Work is getting tierd of dealing with me, though they are defently trying. They said as long as I have a DR note then I would be okay, but my docotor just told me he woulkd not write me any more notes. I dont understand, its not like I dont try my hardest. But Monday(for example) my pain was so back cloths hurt, I have to lay without clothes in bed and not move....my hair hurt that day! And he said I should have been at work...I alsmot responded with "well if I can go naked then no problem". He told me he has a hard time believing I am in that much pain, agian this is where my mom came in and said I do deal with this kind of pain.

I havn't had this much pain in 7 years. I havn't been on pain meds for 7 years. Now the pain is so bad the meds are not working. I started out with just one 5mg perc 4 months ago and that helped, now I am taking 2 percs a day(one in the morning, one at night, 10mg) with hydrocodines while I am at work about every 4 hours just to make it through work. And of course I am now out of meds with no option of getting more because of my doctor. I get insurance in 2 weeks....2 weeks! Then he wants to send me to a pain managment place, which is fine. I just need to get throught the next 2 weeks. Baths no longer help, heating blanket no longer helps, I just dont know what to do anymore. I am so scared I am going to loose my job, I need this job, its wonderful for me if my body would just coruperate! Any idea would be great.

does anyone have any ideas how I can keep my job? I need it. Without the ability to get doctors notes, I dont know what to do. Can;t get FMLA till you have been at this place for 1 year and I have barley been there 3 months. I thought about requesting a leave of absence for care...cause of the ADA (disabilty act). But I have a feeling my doctor wont let me. I dont even know how that works. Please I really need help, I am at my wits end, and I am very close to giving up, I am not a quiter, but I have never fought this hard in my life. I am trying so hard because eerything rides on this job. My ability to get my life back after starting over 4 years ago is right in front of me and I can't get through my pain to get to it! I am serisouly going crazy.

As for meds, it turns out I am allergic to most of the meds made for fibro, aparently my mother is to, I have tried cymbalta, lyrica, savella, and others I can't rememeber and I always have a reaction to them. Lyrica put me in the hospital as a matter of fact . Doctor is starting me on prozac now, cause obviously my depression is getting really bad...any other ideas woujld be great. Thanks

Felicia

To sign up with ADA you tell human resources, they give you paperwork to have your doctor fill out, he sends it back to them and tells them what's wrong.
The process is simple, but if your doctor won't cooperate then you might have a problem.

Have you tried eating a clean diet to see if food allergies could be causing all of this . And if you did , or when you do , please keep it in mind that it takes MONTHS before your body starts to heal and cleanse out the toxins , before you will start to feel like a human being again . I have learned that it takes about 5-7 days after consuming wheat /gluten before I feel my symptoms lift , then I also have learned by trial and error that after Ive been eating clean long enough to have an eleviation of symptoms that it takes about 48 hrs before I have an attack of symptoms after eating the gluten/wheat .... its called a delayed reaction . I think this is why alot of people dont catch that they have a food allergy because the symptoms overlap so unless you dedicate yourself to eating clean for a length of time to really reap the benefits than they never see what was causing it . Just a thought , not saying that this is what is wrong with you .
I have been noticing huge improvements with my fatigue , muscle aching , cramping , shortness of breath and other bad symptoms since removing the grains from my diet . I have found lovely alternatives to the things I loved , so I dont feel deprived , I just feel better than I have in a long time.

Go to the pain clinic of your choice and fire your doctor. While at the pain clinic get a new primary doctor. Talk to HR. The company doesn't need a lawsuite for being unwilling to reasonably acommadate your needs. Don't threaten but tell them your illness is permante but it has flares that at times can put you in a great deal of pain. You do everything you can to work because you like your job. Will they let you work from home sometimes? I am on FMLA. I made it to the year and my doctor, who is amazing, put me on FMLA. I asked to go to the pain clinic. It has helped me allot. They have done 3 procedures on my back and neck. I feel so much better overall. I still work everyday but FMLA protects my job if I have to take time off or leave early. My employer even agreed to let me come in an hour later each day since the mornings are the hardest. I stay and extra hour at night and work from home on weekends. They were sceptacle at first that I was just going to go on dissability but now they see I am just trying to get better. I just had my review and got the full raise and bonus. My boss was very pleased with my performance this year inspite of my FMLA. If your doctor isn't with you he is against you!!!

I filed with the ADA and worked full time. I needed some modifications for my job and work space so they adjusted based on the paperwork.