Having a rough day

Hi everyone, hope you all are doing well. I have been working as a CNA and really like it so far. I did realize that 3 days was definately all I was capable of doing physically. So it's a good thing that is all I was schedualed for. On Sunday which was my last night at work I could feel my body having a fit. I was having muscle spasams and stiffness all over. I had decided that the 4 days that I didnt' work that I would make sure to get on the treadmill and work out to keep my body from getting any stiffer than it needed to be. I have been doing that. I do take one day to just rest which is on Mondays because I am completely exhausted after the 3 days at work. My husband and I have been living with his father due to early alztimers, and it has gotten really rough. He is cranky the majority of the time and not to pleasent to be around. He doesn't say thank you when I clean his house and cook his meals. I feel like he expects it and it drives me crazy! I had to get that off my chest. things have just been depressing lately and it's even harder when you live with someone who is negative. my body hurts everyday. Some times it hurts alot more like today. I am doing the best I can but there is a part of me that just feels sad today. I am in alot of pain today and didn't sleep the best last night. I also dropped a piece of furniture on my right foot last night so that isn't helping. I guess you could say that I feel done. Just tired sad and in pain. I don't feel like I can talk to my husband about it as much when his father is like this because my husband then has to deal with him and me. I am just glad this forum is here. I really needed to share my feelings. I hate feeling trapped. So I apologize if I sound like I am complaining I don't mean to just really frustrated.

I am in awe. I was working as a Cna and I loved it but the physicality of the job just got to where I wasn't sure of my muscles reliability and the last thing I wanted was to hurt someone. I definitely know the pain that comes from the demands of your job.
You may look and see if your father in laws insurance offers any kind of "day care" for seniors. They may cover something like that so you could have at least part of a day to recuperate your strength back. Plus, this would be good for your father in law. Alzheimer's can be a very isolating illness for the person going through it so maybe letting him spend time with people he has no reason to know will relax him a bit.
We all have bad days and it sounds like you've earned yours. This place is good for venting. By the way, I'm willing to rent my kids as laundry folders and vacuumers. They've done their chores here and are driving me nuts fighting over the computer. Lol. Where's school when a mom needs some quiet??

I've decided that since they are out of school until Monday that I am going to train them to do as much housework as an 8 and 6 year old can do! Especially since they are the reason I'm hurting. I keep trying to get them out of the house for a while but my arthritis would rather we just stay home. So I'm making games of chores. No kid of mine will graduate without knowing how to fully care for themselves. Lol!

Pets are wonderful, they seem to know when you need them. Lisa, I am glad you have your little buddy!  It always seems our minds think we are heathy people and we have no limits.  I took on a very stressful job last year and had to give it up even though I loved, loved, loved it, it was just too much for me and I had to go back to working part time, which of course adds the burden of extra financial worries.  And....then you get mad at yourself because your body won't let you do what you want to do.  Its a sad cycle.  Like ak angel said, try and find some time for yourself, reading, soaking, listening.  Last year when I was having a really bad time I made a "woman cave" out of a spare bedroom.  It took me about a month to come up with a sanctuary for myself, no husband allowed, lol, no pets allowed (that lasted a week before I wanted the cat in with me, lol)  Anyhow I ended up with a gorgeous little hide away for myself so when I need a time out or a place to go cry or just a quiet place to read I had it I also read a few books about people's incredible survival stories.  That was helpful in putting life into prospective big time!  Of course I did all this while switching from effexor to cymbalta and getting off tramadol, so needless to say I was a little "crazy" for six weeks!!!  Lisa, how are you feeling today?

How was your weekend of work Lisa?  Hope you managed ok and that your cold is getting better