I don't feel very strong today!

Today has been a very frustrating and difficult day. I am still not smoking and all I wanted today was a cigarett. I am still going through a pretty rough flare and have no energy to speak of.

 

I also have no patience to deal with the normal everyday things that I usually do, my husband I have been doing our best to take care of his father who has dementia and has been having alot of bad days himself. I know it is not his fault and I care alot about him. But I am beyond frustrated with him.

 

I have made the decision to go back to school and get my nursing. It is something that I have been wanting to do and I don't see any point in waiting. My major concern is the financial part of it. I applied for FAFSA and hoping for good news.

 

At this point in my life I really want something for myself, I know that everyone has bad days and I am not trying to complain. I just don't feel like I have the strength to get through the smallest of battles, and battle is what I feel like I am always doing with nothing to show for it. If I am going to battle it will be for something that I will have for the rest of my life.

 

Having the opportunity to be an RN one day is a dream and to be able to help people more than I feel like I have been able to so far is the only thing right now that is keeping me going. That and my dream to one day move to Hawaii and find a nice place to be a nurse. I will make that happen.

 

Untill then any advice on some positive ways to get through untill then would be awesome, and greatly apprichiated I have tryed and I feel like I am not getting anywhere!!! Thank you to all, and hoping you all are doing well

Lisa- don't give up because you have gone to far now. It's so common to be irritated and frustrated while quitting. Tell your hubby he has to be patient for you.

Going to nursing school is wonderful. You might have to go at a slower pace taking the classes and doing clinicals. It's tough, but I know that is your dream. Shoot for it. Once you get your RN you can do other jobs that might not be so harsh on your body. I use to have friends that were travel nurses to Hawaii. We are so close to Hawaii from Alaska. So many people use Hawaii as a frequent vacation spot. It's a five hr. flight from Anchorage. I have been and it's very beautiful. The only thing it's very costly.

I pray tomorrow your day will be better. Try to stay distracted.

Go for it! I think being a nurse is a great goal. My former SIL is a nurse and one of her daughters are a CNA. The other is a dietary Aide while she finishes High School. She wants to be a RN.
If I didn't have a certain medical phobia I'd do it.

I've found if I keep my hands busy I don't eat quite as much. Maybe if you keep your hands busy you won't want a a cigarette as much?

I'm still very proud of you for quitting smoking!! That's such a wonderful battle right there that you are fighting and its all for your health!!
I think it's a great idea to pursue becoming an RN. You can also look at getting jobs through your school that can help you with your tuition. Those tend to be great for letting you work around classes. Schools usually offer tons of scholarships that may not be as greatly advertised so make sure you check in with their financial aid department.
We all have battles so you know we can offer tons of support while you make it through yours. I know you probably know this but there are programs available for caretakers of patients with illnesses that leave them unable to take care of themselves. They can be great for the patient, too.
Alzheimer's is a horrible disease. I'm so sorry you're family is having to watch a beloved family member lose himself. I know you'll look back and be so glad you moved him in with you at this time so you could enjoy the time you have even if sometimes it's hard. Make sure you and your husband are both getting breaks because it can be so overwhelming and sad. Maybe arrange for a church member or friend to sit with your father in law so you two can attend a movie, eat dinner, go for a walk, etc.
Life is your battle. I know it sounds odd but you fight all the bad times to make all the good ones so much better. The trials and tribulations add wisdom, sympathy, and so much more. So you're battle is to make your life follow the path that feels right to you, bumps and all.

Smoking is a hand to mouth habit, and so is eating. Don't let eating replace smoking if you can help it. We are really proud of you for your accomplishment.

Hugs, Karen

Hello to all, I just wanted to thank all of you for your replys and support. I look to this forum for  advice and courage when I don't have it and you guys have been so kind! I am still not smoking, everyday is so diffrent so I am taking them as they come. Today is a good day so far and I feel lucky about that. I sincerly apprichiate you all and hope you have a great day

Good for you! Quitting smoking is healthy choice for you! And for me too! Hahaha! Every time someone else quits smoking, I think the selfish thought that there is one less person causing my asthma.


If you are tempted to pick up a cigarette, think of some random lady on your forum wheezing... or not. Lol Or the knitting or drawing in a sketch book might work out a lil better.